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2009-04-04T04:09:00.002+08:00

so, i had fully recovered and well,just wanted to share some of the experiences i had in life disregard on whether the people involved will be reading this. okay so i will start off with this, i knew this girl from a church,my friend's relatives and well, shes those typical ah lian type of girls. And yes i did go to church in the past and no,i no longer go to church anymore,i like being what i am now. So,lets call this girl ting. i had a relationship with her and well,things did not last for us. however,we still managed to keep in contact and things start getting bad when she comes borrowing money from me. initially,i lent it to her as i thought she might really need it and yes,she did claim it was BORROW, which meant she would return. time past and soon,she contacted me again for money AGAIN. time and time again,i had been borrowing money to her and not been getting any back. So there was this once recently when she asked for money AGAIN. well,i tried to reject but she just had to make a fuss out of it and irritate me and i had no choice but to oblige knowing that there will almost be a 100% chance i would not be getting my money back. Silly it is but still,i promised to lend the money to her AFTER she promised to return me the money in 2-3 days. days had passed,i had to pay for my bills which was like $200+ . knowing the due date was up,i contacted her and well,she made a fuss out of it and tried to make it my fault and back then,it felt so much she was NOT going to return me the money. so after the argument,i told her the truth that i do not mind her not returning me the money cause in fact thats the LAST time she will take any money from me because she is not going to be in my life anymore. With this,she said...she will return me the money the next day. However,she did NOT even contact me the next day and there i knew....just the way she was,shes a slut. i am sorry i had to use that word because i could not find any reasons to "appreciate" her. So,from then on....shes out of my life and yes,i know that by saying it here,im not keeping to my words. BUT,when i mean shes out of my life,it meant no longer as friends and THIS POST is specifically meant to give everyone an idea of how despicable some people can get to get money to satisfy theirselves.

2009-03-31T01:03:00.002+08:00

had been down from sore throat which lead to running nose and watery eyes. felt really uncomfortable the past few days but im more or less recovered now. anyway,i had said before i do miss camp and i really do want to go back to work abit. however,thinking of it,it just makes me feel that my boss will make me come back to work rather than rest during my MC period stating that if i can work for 1 day,i can carry on working rather than resting at home. so,i really have no idea what i will do now. i have got physio tomorrow morning i forgot 8 or 9am but hahas,im gonna wake up at 6.45am and hope that i dont miss my appointment, i really hope this physio session could ease the pain off my legs and let me be able to bend down and touch the ground. although many people say i chow geng and such, i do agree i am one of the more slacking guys but in times like this,i myself do want to get well myself. its my body afterall and i want to be in the best shape as i can. so anyway,had been face-booking all day long and guess i will update more soon...in days to come perharps? =)

2009-03-19T01:50:00.002+08:00

realised its been months since my last post,so here it goes. i will be posting more often as im on medical leave till like may. so,lets continue from my birthday, my 21st birthday was quite a success actually and i quite liked it,all i did was act that i was abit drunk and i am saved from further embarrassment.=DD , so anyway,was freaking out before my operation during early feb,but the operation was a success until i kind of had an infection. maybe i didnt clean the wound properly or i ate the wrong thing,glad to say,i was lucky it was not toxic infection or i would had to operate on my back again. im still recovering right now and all i can say is my back is not perfect,but conditions had improved for me. i registered for dip in marketing management and hopefully i'd make it as i really need the diploma. so anyway,i went to KL and genting lately and had quite some fun there, i faced quite afew fears but overcame it. i took a cable car up and down from genting. i was freaking out but i had to take it as that might have been the only route up which took the least time. afterall,i felt it was not as scary and i wouldnt mind going for another cable car trip now =D . lost some money in the casino but thats okay,just plain experience,hehes. i also went to times square in KL and yeah,ladies paradise i swear,7 out of 10 shops were selling ladies stuffsbut i still managed to catch some good deals there. =DD lately,i went to SAFRA tampines and my friends and i played archery. there was GREAT entertainment there. lets start with this.... i got a friend we call "tekko" , he is just so skinny and guess what,he is a barbarian in the archery zone. while we were plucking out our arrows from the target on the wall, he pulled out the whole target board not once,but TWICE. also,the shots he made were on target but seconds later,the arrow would just drop as the arrow didnt penetrate through,so sad for him. SO....heres the hardcore part, my friend's cousin was sitting on the bench and halfway...CRACK...everyone looked around and 1 by 1,we started laughing, THE CHAIR BROKE!! well,not totally but the whole wood was bent inwards. everyone started to run away from the spot when we left as its dam malu. hahas, that was like the joke of the day and even now,i could laugh at it. =D anyway,i do miss camp,i need to work =(( but im afraid that i may feel any discomfort as i do not have any medicines right now. will post more updates soon =)

2008-08-15T20:56:00.002+08:00

its been such a long time since i had last blogged. i dont know why but i just dont feel like blogging again till today. maybe im lazy or something...? many things had been happening ard me so yah, im kinda stressed up at the moment.....i dont even know where to start now but a brief summary of what is happening will be....i had served the RSN for like 7 months+ now, so 16-17 more months before my national service ends....time do past by fast but im nt really happy where i am,i do have my fellow colleagues to rely on,my buddies in camp but there are also real bastards in camp....so ya,stressed up with work in camp is 1 thing...relationships in camp is also another problem as i do admit i have some problems with another colleague...but i can swear on my full name it wasnt my fault for disliking him that much. so,the weekend is here...not sure what i will be doing,most prob basketball and basketball.....im just like a loner now,i dont know when i will blow up and go crazy....but yah,coming my 21st bday...im gonna hold a buffet at my place...thats all i guess,and im still defining the word "love"....so whatever,im gg insane!

2008-01-13T03:41:00.000+08:00

counting down the days,i dont know if i should feel happy or upset. Reason being i dont know why i am supposed to be upset. Im required to bring along swimming goggles which means i might need to get into the water but i cant swim and i think i am worried because of that. Well,otherwise than that,it goes to my haircut. I am kinda troubled over the fact on how i will look BALD,so i guess thats another factor to me feeling stressed.There are other minor minor stuffs troubling me but i just cant figure it out,i mean in less than 48 hours,i will be a "chow recruit" serving national service. Yet i am like trying to convince myself that i will be alright.So well,i wasnt trying to be brave when i told my parents not to come find me in tekong. Its just that i aint close to them and i dont like the feelings of going out with them. Its like years since i last had a proper family,many years back when i last went out with my parents. So i guess i will feel uneasy going out with them.So ya,actually,deep down inside,im afraid,im seriously showing some sense of fear no matter much i try to keep my confidence level there.Hopefully things will turn out fine....

2008-01-08T22:49:00.000+08:00

just came back from seng kang not long ago,went to mpcc for a while today before meeting zhifeng and robin+. So yah,zhifeng drove us to sengkang there and i had sambal fried rice for $4.50 which aint worth it,then i got a can drink which cost $1.30,man it seems their goods came from outer space. So yah,did play but not to my potential,so alittle disappointed even though we wonn the game. So well,still counting down to my enlistment..=/

2008-01-08T02:54:00.000+08:00

well,not feeling very good today though i went out with my gf. Aint gonna emphasize on what happened but yah,days are counting down and this is my last week before i get into army,i doubt many people know about it but ya i think its okay anyway. So anyway,had issues with my parents like they wanted to come to tekong with me bt i turned them down and well,i decided to go in alone. Awful it may sound but i am really not on good terms with my parents and besides,i will be in for just a week and most probably i will be fine there. So anyway,im like very troubled right now so i dont want to post much but its all relationship stuffs. Well,guess thats all for tonight...cya again guys

2008-01-04T21:29:00.000+08:00

woke up roughly at 12pm today,skipped my lunch and so called breakfast and i went down to play basketball,so yup,it was like so tiring today,we had quite afew full court games and i was pushing myself to make sprints and stuffs.Had a few good moves but sad to say,my shoe is like SPOILT now.However,as i dont have another pair of bball shoes ,i guess i gotta bear with it these while. so anyway,had dinner with jacky,sim and tek and weiguang and went home,feeling very sore and in pain now,and yah,im feeling tt im gonna puke soon. =(( -way off exhausted

2008-01-03T00:09:00.000+08:00

its the 3rd day of 2008 and yah,played basketball with tat hang earlier and pretty fun when we took on 2 china dudes,alright,so i spent all my $65 on arcade earlier so im broke right now,most probably i gotta start saving soon and counting down would be army on jan 14. So,aint gt much to say tonight,just yah,maybe tell you guys im still alive? =D

2008-01-01T05:12:00.000+08:00

its new year,well celebrated christmas and new year about the same way. Well,had some alcohol and had frog porridge+ at dunman food center for christmas while i had alcohol at robin's place and then,i went to the beach myself after that. so what did i do on 1/1/2008? well,i was having a bad morning with headaches but it worked out well and i went to the basketball court somewhere like 5pm and yah,uncle reno was sleeping the time i smsed him but so glad he came down. =) had some games among robin,myself and some other friends,not those games i like actually cause its kinda way too friendly and i cant push my limits in this type of games but well,maybe its these little factors that keeps friendships going at times.so, went to market to have dinner-chicken chop XD, then yeah,we went to buy our alcohol and then headed on to robin's place,played monopoly and well,walked home after that. So,i have this horrible habbit of thinking alot when im alone and well,whatever uncle reno said during basketball came back to me and i realised i gotta do something. It sure gets a little demoralising when he said he had foreseen my kind of playing style being somehow useless in official games cause the only advantage i possess is speed and jump and maybe my shooting? Seriously speaking,im those guys who goes around trying to prove people wrong and i wont be surprised if i would try to prove uncle reno wrong this time round. Its not that im being a loser but i dont somewhat stay down to these words. I worked hard for what i wanted,and now,i may not be the best there is,but i will still be working hard to improve and be a better player.Maybe my style of play wont work in official games but i know that the game is not lost,till the final whistle blows or when i get down with an injury cause so long as im in the game,nothing but EVERYTHING will be given from me. so yup,i went jogging at east coast park when i got home and im kinda happy with what i did. =) well,i ran 2 times the normal distance i usually take and of course,my leg is hurting but thats just part of training =) aint got no plans tomorrow but relationship wise,i shall take 1 step at a time ,till then =)

2007-12-21T00:31:00.000+08:00

well,didnt really have enough sleep last night and its really freezing this morning i ended up hiding in my blanket for such a long time,so yah,i played basketball today and i realised one thing.....that i should not be playing a a forward anymore but a point guard,it certainly is weird but i hope my instincts will be right this time.....so im going out tomorrow to meet my friend for dinner/supper i think....and today may be perfect for me at the basketball court but it was loneliness that accompanied me throughout after i went back home....

2007-12-19T04:04:00.000+08:00

its been more than 10 days since i last posted and obviously,there had been many things happening,im just gonna try to make it short....so today,everything had been so good for me till i got caught for jaywalking at bedok interchange,and that was the most stupid thing EVER,like i saw this auntie cross and therefore,i FOLLOWED and...*LAUGHS,we both got caught for jaywalking.....well,either a warning letter or a fine but whatever,and well,that guy was like repeating "how can you cross the road like this?" , and i so so felt like telling him..."so what?here i am..ALIVE? and i crossed it anyway,and are you going to draw me a ZEBRA CROSSING for us?" well,sounds retarded but yah,took down my ic particulars and i was free to go,so well...i was kinda pissed at that moment i almost told the auntie i was following..."hey auntie,next time your kids grow up ask them study hard ok? dont let them be like "THESE PEOPLE" , only know to catch people one"...so alright,kinda being evil *grins,but thats the way i am la...hahas....so anyway,i forgive them la,its their job anyway....but its also my choice to jaywalk... =.=' ,so whatever ba.....then well,its been raining these few days and im feeling pain on my right hand for these 3 days,like the metal piece in my right hand has grown smaller due to temperature changes or was it because the metal piece went out of place....cause im actually having problems using my right hand now....and my backbone is somehow getting stiffer and stiffer so i think i really need some therapy soon.....at least some painkillers? so anyway....watched alvin and the chipmunks earlier and it was nice i feel,so yup....been playing basketball very often these days but i dont think i will stop...so im gonna basketball again tomorrow i think and to hell goes with relationships...=D

2007-12-04T22:59:00.000+08:00

didnt really go anywhere today...had a haircut and i think i look stupid now...but nevermind,so basketball yesterday and i had to admit i was way way way off....i dont know if its because i cannot catch my breathe due to a bad warm up that lead me to all my mistakes but i dont wanna give excuses,that filipino does have very good jumps and i think i might have problems even if im on form.....i cant say for sure but i dont want to give any excuses....all i know is i gotta do much better the next time i play....but HOW?! my knee is injured and now,it feels my shin is gonna get fractured from the stress of my legs or knees.....its like i know my knee is not going to last for long and its giving me signs that it will fail me....and yesterday....it felt like giving way and the impact went on to my shin....i feel so useless now i feel i dont ever deserve to be with anyone anymore.....which is why i told sy to find her own guy instead...right now...i know i need to rest badly...but on the other hand....i feel like challenging my body instead......and whats worse is i think i had pulled my right arm's muscles earlier on.....and yah,yesterday....i play against a bunch of guys who FOULED to win....its like we are playing proper and fair....if it was a real match,you guys would have FOULED OUT....morons...i had plays that almost lead me to injuries and accidents thanks to you guys....so..if you guys want to stop me...you stop me if you can the right way...not by fouling me although thats 1 mean of stopping me.....your just showing how useless you are when your unable to break our offence by fouling us....and we thank you guys for that,yes we did lose the games...but im sure our own safety is more important than the game.....you guys want to win,yeah you won....but if it was a real match...you guys would be in the washroom in awhile.....being FOULED OUT...noobs....and more information is that if you didnt foul to win.....we would probably have kicked your ass that bad you would not even play in that court again....

2007-12-01T23:44:00.000+08:00

well well,had a pretty late night yesterday so i woke up somewhere ard 5pm today....kinda bored and yup,went to parkway to play arcade.....i topped up $20 and gees...that girl keyed in wrongly or what....hees..cause i got $40 instead of $20...well...so yup,i played 5 credits or so and yup,went shopping at giants before going to macdonald.....and i hope my eyes were playing pranks on me.....cause i saw someone who looked like sy...so i smsed her after i gt home bt since she don wanna reply,who cares anyway...well you see,i had moved a step back and since she still doesnt wanna give in,so be it....not like i owe her anything or that i need her or what.....so yup.....theres a replay of Miami Heat VS Boston Celtics (NBA) later on at 4am+ so im staying up....=))

2007-12-01T03:28:00.000+08:00

just got back from supper with robin,dorin and chew.....had dim sum and satay at geylang and yah,chatted quite abit and well...had much laughter as well....so yup....after robin dropped me off near my place,i was walking home alone and i thought about some stuffs which relates me to the verse..."true love is unconditional..." and to think of it....i dont know why but it seems that i still miss her somehow,i mean maybe its because i have yet to move on i hope...well...we drove past yl's place and there was certain guilt in me....seriously....when i didnt know whats love,how to treat a girl properly and treasure her for who she is.....im guilt-written.....but its too late now cause i doubt we will have any chances of being together again....i mean...she was the right girl i swear...but at the wrong moment....sigh....but yup,moving on.....i am somehow starting to understand whats the defination of "love"....and hopefully....i wont make anymore big mistakes this lifetime which i will live to regret.....

2007-11-30T00:21:00.000+08:00

first things first....my comp is at the risk of breaking down any moment and i may be left with the only option to get online through my laptop,but in some cases,there might be a problem with my router so i dont know but if my desktop breaks down and i cant get online through my laptop,then i think it will be sometime till i will come online again....but hopefully,that wont happen,so anyway....basketball today....and today....im doing my best to make sure nothing goes wrong,or at the least....make less mistakes and of course...work harder for the ball.....so yah....quite happy with my plays today but yah,i got a knee injury at the moment since last thursday....its called "patella tendonitis" ,and yah....its obvious im not giving a dam to the pain right now cause i simply dont care about my body now......so yah...parkway arcade -timezone removed the Time Crisis 3 machine and im feeling so bored now.....so im currently playing the game where you take a fake hammer and slam that machine or so....gees...addictive though....and yeah...my highest score is 919 for now....so might be playing basketball tomorrow i think....and yeah...talking about relationships....well,let me ask you guys....if a girl claimed to like a guy and when they did not manage to be together....the girl ended up trying to be with another guy within afew days...isnt the girl BITCHY and FLIRTATIOUS or what? so...i had her deleted from all means of contact already,so yah...im SAVED =D and im pretty sure im not gonna miss her for what i had done for her cause it was completely OUTRAGEOUS,who would take a cab down from the airport after a flight with all his luggages to find a girl he loves when he can go home and rest instead =.=' well,i did and after all these incidents,i can be sure shes not worthy of my love and she will NEVER BE...EVER..... so right now,sweet dreams to me cause its pretty late and i still gotta bball tomorrow...=))

2007-11-26T22:06:00.000+08:00

well,im back blogging and so let me start off....my desktop had a minor explosion with blue sparks some days back so i somehow had to use my laptop to come online instead,however,i dont know how but my desktop managed to get back on with no problems after this few days.....so yah,it was a suspected damaged power supply or damaged motherboard but luckily for me,this desktop is still running well.....as in for now.....so not gonna talk much about the trip in hongkong and well well....it seems my left knee cap is showing signs of failing me......started last thursday when i was playing basketball and i suddenly felt my knee cap went loose,its not very obvious but it sure hurts for that moment....i played on with the pressure on my knees but yah,after these few days of rest,my body seems to be getting worse,my backbone feels slightly weaker these days and my knee cap is not able to exert any force anymore.....im even having problem jumping and running.....i got a knee strap and knee guard but its still not of much use to me.....the pain just seems to come from the bones inside....so yah,enough of this....theres a decision to make sometime soon on whether i should carry on playing or i should leave the game for sometime or forever.....gonna leave this answer to the future......im gonna skip my views on relatonships but i can tell you that im disappointed......might be going to the movies or arcade at parkway tomorrow....so yah.....im still in search of my "p__nc_s_" =)) figure that out,pretty easy though

2007-11-14T00:42:00.000+08:00

okay...watched the bee movie earlier....kinda funny but not as nice as game plan i feel....but its still just as entertaining.....so yah...im still packing my luggage right now and my mind is bursting like...what else did i forget to bring..LOL....so yah,i think im done with it....just pondering if i wanna bring my lappie with me...so yah...yesterday stuffs....see im sick and pissed of this china dude who only plays to win....i admit i do wanna win as well but i mean...it hurts my heart to see him play against 2 kids....like ok...this was a 2vs2 game and this china dude guy is playing to win...he banged off the kid who is like 12 yrs old only who is so small in size....then he snatch the ball away....like how would you feel if you was the parent of the child? whats more...im only an OUTSIDER and it already is a disturbing scene...what if the parents of the kid see whats happening? like a strong build man banging off a skinny kid.....like hello? pick on someone your own size....so i got to play with him eventually and his team lost 11-4.....then he sat down and i played my games and then...off he goes...i mean...if he dared to come in and play...i will make sure hes not gonna win any games.....i mean...these are some kids who are learning to play basketball....instead of teaching/guiding them...you bully them and win them...you think people gonna respect you for that? when those kids commit "travelling" you say their fault and take the ball away BUT what do u think others would do? WE tell them they made a mistake and we tell them not to do it again.....like we are guiding them so they can improve....WINNING IS IMPORTANT,BUT..if you would do ANYTHING to win,your NEVER gonna be a winner....so anyway...my flight is on thursday 6.40am,supposed to reach hk airport at 10.20am....so yah....last night of sleep at home tonight....=)) take care all

2007-11-11T03:23:00.000+08:00

just got home so yah....i went to east coast earlier to meet up with robin,dorin,scar++ for dinner at burger king so yah...went to dunman after that and yah...i had french BK chicken meal..upsized and a taro turnover add-on....adding up to $8.45 , then when i reached dunman...i had frog porridge....so i had 2 meals for dinner and yah....sure my appetite is growing....so anyway...i wished shir happy birthday cause i remembered the days when she said she had "no" friends....so just dropped her a msg as a "know you ONLY" friend....nothing more than that now.....so anyway.....went cycling with kevin and hontek after tt and it sure is tiring....arhh....old liao man...my backbone also cannot make it now... >.< , so anyway...im counting down to my hk trip....*she* says she got school the day i am leaving and needa sleep and wont be able to send me off =(( BUT...she said she will be with me these couple of days to make up for it....ahhh....but nevermind its sunday later on and most probably she will be coming to find me <33 , okay gonna end here cause i wanna take a quick bath and play some OZ before heading to bed......miss her so much i could die for her now =(( ,will update again soon..

2007-11-10T01:02:00.000+08:00

basketball today was the same.....being pulled down by team mates who cant defend....like im having a hard time guarding my own man and i still gotta cover your ass? why dont you just shoot me dead instead.....enough of basketball,cause i dont know how long i will carry on playing.....the passion aint there anymore thanks to these moronic freaks.......so i had 2 bowls of ban mian for dinner and yah....it seems my appetite is growing.....then headed to arcade and i think the guy creditted $30 to me when i paid $20...gees...played some couple of games and yah...had loads of fun and well....going fishing tomorrow....so gotta get my fishing stuffs ready in awhile....in terms of relationship...i told *her* that we can remain as very close friends for now as i said im having problems moving on from the past....like yeah...she agreed and said she will be here waiting for me so yah......most probably i will go back to her after im sure i had moved on....but for now,i promised that i will not check out on any other girls.....=)) and im so lucky shes been such a great support for me....and i think shes the right girl for me....so ya..i would have progressed with her had it not been for the previous girl.....but enough of this....if my memory aint wrong...its shir's birthday on sunday was it? =/ most probably im not gonna even sms/msg or like contact her on that day as she got her own friends to entertain i suppose....and besides,im very sure she would have forgotten me now....so anyway...another reason is because i seriously dislike her friends anyway.....so yah,besides the fact i know her and she knows me...maybe we are friends? either wise...shes got nothing to do with me anyway right?.....and besides....i should be moving on...i suppose =)) gotta take a shower and get my fishing stuffs ready now....peace out ^^

2007-11-09T00:05:00.000+08:00

just got home....so yah...supposed to go to simlim but as i was late,scar told me not to go...i went to the basketball court though....played abit without sweating much...didnt wanna tire myself out....but yah.....im seriously getting sick of all those fucking noobs who tends to pull my performance down.....like i said..defend this guy and then he followed my instructions BUT within seconds....the guy he was defending was like meters away from him and i ended up having to defend 2 guys instead.....like...i got my own man to defend and im already worrying for myself....and i gotta cover your ass for you as well? attack and attack...thats what you all know......when you guys dont even THINK OR UNDERSTAND that every chance to attack comes from DEFENCE.....and like i said....you guys can attack...BUT SO CAN I !! , and i may even have a better chance of scoring than you guys do....and THINK...why do i distribute and share the ball with team mates......obvious that i want team work and better chances of scoring.....but what do you guys know? attack and score and be the man of the match....being a hero and respected player because you get the points? LOOK...you know NOTHING of basketball if you think that way.....where do you think your chances of attack come from? DEFENSIVE REBOUNDS,STEALS and obviously....good team defence......im not directing this topic at anyone....i just want you all to know that im being frustrated with people who dont have the skills/basics of basketball YET are so so determined to PROVE that they are good.....when they know nothing.....NOTHING!.....okay...then i went to had sambal fried rice today...reminded me of someone whom i had almost forgotten....but my hearts not aching anymore....gotten over it now....so yah..had fun at arcade and then.....slacked around at the bus stop before coming home.....not sure of the plans tomorrow but yah....im gonna get a bath before playing OZ then to bed.... =))

2007-11-07T20:34:00.000+08:00

watched the game plan yesterday,a very nice show indeed...gees.....so yesterday was so fun anyway.....although i caught a cold,there was still so much fun like chasing after the bus...gees....like when i was late and am on the way to bedok....the bus 31 was right behind me stopped by a red light....so me,zhi bo and his friend chased after the bus and we caught it with me at the front...lols....so after the movies,i was like slacking halfway till i saw bus 197 light up its number and after saying bye.....i rushed across the road and managed to get in...so while i was running this time....i heard someone saying "wah,so fast ah" and i so so felt like replying....felt like replying.."this is NOTHING"......hahas....so yah..played basketball today from 2pm+ till like 8pm? very tiring indeed but at least got some new friends...i mean NOT REAL PLAYERS.....but at least some new friends....but ah...my backbone is hurting me now.....feels so stiff so yah.....gonna have dinner soon...if i remember anything to add on,i will blog again later on ^^ till then..peace out~

2007-11-05T20:34:00.000+08:00

it seems like time is passing by so quickly....i had almost forgotten about yesterday's incident but yah...lets move on to whats happened today.....okay,played basketball with jacky for awhile and yah...was very off today.....then after that....i started to teach this guy how to take advantage of his size during basketball like teaching him to bang people and stuffs....and he is a DISGRACE...screw it...hes a total waste of my time and effort.....so...we played on and another friend of mine came in WITH "something" to prove.....first of all...basketball is not just a team game but a game which makes use of BRAINS.....so this dude here....took the ball and made EVERY attempt he can have.....and the results were FUCKING BAD.....and guess what? the whole team was passing around and the moment he got it...you can say goodbye to that ball...."GOOD SHOT....YOU JUST MISSED!" , and i dont see why i should do so much for the team anymore....like....LOOK,you know whats PASS? you know whats "FORMATION RESTART"? your making the gameplay so horrible i dont even UNDERSTAND what the fuck you are trying to do or prove....yeah hell we won the game but so what? its BAD gameplay and i dont see any reason why i should be happy with a win like this.....but forget it,this is pointless....like your not worth my time and space in MY blog....now now....im on the phone with her =)) and yah....gosh im so desperate for her i dont think i wanna hang up the phone anytime soon.... >.< ,might be going movies at bedok-princess tomorrow evening so yah...post again soon...^^

2007-11-04T23:46:00.000+08:00

alright...didnt play basketball at mpcc today cause they had training for the "Open" competitions....so yah...went to the court below and played and guess what....i played with the same group of guys again...the one who played dirty and almost caused me to fall down.....so yah....our games were close but yah....when that guy came in....stress started pouring in cause theres the risk of getting injured.....but yah....i played properly though.....then here comes the part....me and that guy were running after a ball...and he swung his elbow right on my neck and i had to give up the chase like wth....thats uncalled for...but they had it played on.....then....i decided to intensify my defence...gees...you dont see me do that often right? so yah....he wanted to bang me off mid-game but i avoided him and went sideways and tapped his ball out...then when he started ball...i went right in front of him and started jumping to irritate him but i wasnt at fault as i was playing defence so i was standing IN the court and am trying to find a chance to hit the ball away.....then he was trying to like pass then when he got irritated....he tried to "fake" me by making an action to slam the ball at me...but sadly....i aint afraid of that....lols....so he got more pissed i think....then he moved a step back and i thought...."thats a gd decision,he can have a better angle to pass the ball" BUT guess what....he threw the ball right at my thigh area and the ball went out....maybe he was aiming for my "bottom" but too bad.....so i know i should be angry but instead,i said.."whats this?" ,so yah...his team mates were also like telling him thats uncalled for....ahahas....like hello? this is basketball....not some kinda rugby/dodgeball match....so when he did that,i was actually more than happy.....cause i know that when he does that,hes showing that hes not a good sportsman and that will spoil his image/reputation.....so yah.....he didnt apologise but we just had a slap of hands after the game like...no offence....reason being...hes gotta be embarrassed with his actions so yah.....i dont mind these attitude stuffs cause when i mean basketball...i really mean PLAY BASKETBALL.....so yah...enough of basketball....i miss her very much...arghh....going basketball tomorrow again though....and hopefully she can make it down tomorrow....=)) update again later or tomorrow..gonna take a bath now =))

2007-11-04T14:26:00.000+08:00

alright...im going to basketball around 3pm so yah....im meeting hon tek and clement first....very grateful to clement cause he was busy yet he decied to take time out to bring into the court....cause im gonna feel weird with all the players looking at me as a stranger.....so im pretty excited and worry that i cant perform but.....im trying to calm myself down......yes,im afraid of being injured,falling down and stuffs....but please let these be gone....i not gonna back down just because im afraid......and im making sure i do what i say....hopefully i would play good later on...but yah...gonna bath and have some food before heading to the court.... -my back hurts but its not like i can do anything about it,so..im gonna screw the pain and go through the games with it....update again tonight =))

2007-11-04T06:04:00.000+08:00

i just got home,so yah....shes recovered already but its a pity i may not be able to see her unless she comes to find me later on.....so yah,i went cycling earlier on and yah....spent the night out riding bikes,eating and "repairing" bikes...lols....so the question to why am i repairing bikes? the answer is this...we were cycling half way till this craze of speed came and we were like okay...CHIONG ARH.....and hon tek's bike broke down TWICE!!....lmao....so his chain came loose and what to do.... >.< ended up sacrificing to fix his chains...luckily the toilet was close and yah...cleaned the stains easily....so anyway,we took the whole lot of toilet paper from the restroom in ECP...shh...ended up not using any of it though.....=D so yah.....im going to go for a tryout/training at marine parade cc later on...gonna ask clement to bring me in and yah...gonna find a few interested parties to come....^^ , but yah...on the way home...i hit myself with the bike and dam i got blue black somewhere above my knees....very SUEY arh... >.< ,but hopefully the weather will be good later and i will have some good games.... -girl...with every breath of mine,i'll hold you by my side.. <33

2007-11-03T01:08:00.000+08:00

alright,i just got home from jogging and i covered quite some distance today..my blisters are growing now....so a very high chance no more sports/activities tomorrow already unless i want to.....so i think my knee aint used to knee strap as i was having problems running and now that i took it off,its hurting more....but i will try afew more times,if it still doesnt help,then im nt gonna wear it anymore....so anyway,no plans yet for tomorrow.....but i shall see how,maybe i will visit *her* to see if she feels any better ^^ , for now...im gonna play OZ-fishing/chat game before sleeping...so if your interested to join me in game or have an account there,do let me know ^^

2007-11-02T18:21:00.000+08:00

okay...just went to see*her* and man it feels so bad to see her look so pale....she was down with cold and it seemed she was so much in pain....hais....stayed on abit with *her* hoping she knows that i am there for her and that she will have me through good and bad times.....but in the end..i decided to leave so that she can rest well......so i came back to the basketball court...played afew games and i came home now....so yah....my hk pehpeh is going back to hk tomorrow but he has left me an address and his contacts+ so that i could contact him in hongkong....but nvm about that....my left knee and backbone is giving me problems and i know it,most probably im gonna get a knee strap for my knee to try to not worsen my injury..bt for my backbone...i really dont know what i can do about it.....but nvm....so my laptop is almost ready to start work i think...maybe after getting afew more programs....=)) gotta end here now for dinner,maybe i will post again later on ^^ -please let me be the one to be sick...it hurts me to see you in this state....

2007-11-01T23:39:00.000+08:00

okay...basketball today....had full court and half court games....so yeah...went to simlim square before that and ended up late for basketball as i took a bus instead...dam taxi stand so crowded yet no taxis.....so didnt meet her today cause she was sick....=(( , but at least we kept our smses going on....hehes....miss her so much now... >.< ,so anyway....my backbone is getting bad to worse as usual....getting overstrained very much from basketball like 4 days in a row i think.....and i think im going to potong pasir to play tomorrow....not confirmed but if im not going to play tomorrow ,then i will be stucked at home the whole day.... =(( hais...if only she wasnt sick.....she would be with me these while and we would have been so happy together.....but nvm...lets get her some rest and hopefully she will recover quickly yah ^^ , so back to topic...i bought this router already and its working...gees...both wireless and cable are working which is good....MISSION ACCOMPLISHED,maybe i aint tt stupid afterall....hahas...maybe just stupid in relationship...but im glad i found someone who is willing to be patient with me....=)) will update again tomorrow i suppose....^^ take care all... and please pray for me that she will recover soon kkies? for she is like the queen of my heart..... =D

2007-11-01T02:33:00.000+08:00

so so....played basketball today before meeting *her*.....and yah,i think i got busted by ky at ecp.... >.< so ky...please don say anything out kkies? please please.....wait i shy ah....=( so anyway....after sending her home from ecp....i came back and started with my plan....hehehe...i called starhub and waited like 10 minutes and they referred me to linksys's technical support....so.... i called linksys support and they told me to get a NEW GATEWAY.....even recommended me one...=p which is so so so...EXPENSIVE....so most probably im going sim lim tomorrow before going to play basketball.....but yah,linksys has very good customer service.....they are very much service oriented and the guy even told me to call back EVEN IF i need help configuring...whats better is he added on if i needed any other help before hanging up the phone making sure i got every piece of information or help i needed before hanging up.....so i very much like the service of linksys ^^....like just look at the difference in the service in singapore and overseas......but remember i told u i peeled off my skin on the toe....its not affecting me much today in basketball and im supposing that it wont affect me tomorrow neither.....so anyway....screw tt ah neh for "recommending" me this fcuking gateway...grrr....but peace out now...take care all ^^ -enjoying every moment of my life now... never been better^^

2007-10-31T03:06:00.000+08:00

well well....3.04am now so lets start with what i did earlier the day......well....i went to sim lim square via cab with *her* somewhere ard 3pm....but yah...i visited the basketball court to meet jacky first cause i promised to play ball today...but yah had to put him aeroplane as we made our way to simlim as it was getting late.....so taxi fare cost ard $7 and yah....bought my router/gateway for like $107 with a RJ45 cable which cost $12 which was not needed afterall.....and guess what....i had been spending the last 5-6 hours trying to configure this freaking stupid retarded router/gateway......and im still trying!! this is so pissing me off like HELLO? i graduated from a so called multimedia tech course and i dont even know how to set this stupid router/gateway?? gees...this is getting so embarrassing,but blame it on the stupid ADSL RJ11 port......so anyway....came back to play basketball after buying my stuffs and surprisingly...jacky was still there and i managed to play some games before sending her home =)) i dont wanna comment so much on my relationship with *her* cause you know....i dont want another big surprise coming to devastate me again....=)) so i will just take things slow and enjoy my time with *her*.... =)) so yah...i just happened to peel off my skin on my 2nd toe...freaking pain now..LOL....so im gone case for tomorrow like how am i supposed to play ball? OMG OMG.....like im getting so stupid all of a sudden >.< arghh....

2007-10-30T00:15:00.000+08:00

alright....this is interesting...^^ , today i went for basketball and i dont know why but it just seem i just dont get exhausted.....i was running in and out,fast and slow.....kept on playing without feeling tired.....was it because of my training? most probably i suppose......had good basketball games...won some and lost some but whats the best thing was that the games are fun......and at least i know im making much more effort in every game i play.....so so...went out with *SECRET* =D after basketball and yah...had dinner,played abit of arcade before sending her home.....then i came back home and i went jogging.....like i said....i dont know why but i aint getting tired at all...even after this run at ECP......in regard to the problems in relationships....i had decided to move on for real and so anyway.....had a little unhappy convo with shir and i also told her not to go to hk with us......which she agreed eventually and i think we are no longer friends anyway......so lets forget her like ya know...BACKSPACE her from my life....or DELETE those memories away yah...=D then yah at ECP....there was this guy i dont know human or not.....i was using him as a pace maker but he ended up running like some mad cow and i was chasing like....dont you ever get tired? =.=' then i got round the loop at the cable skiing area and headed back with him leading the way......so i got back very quickly thanks to this fcuking pace maker......anyway,most probably going to simlim square tomorrow with *SECRET* to buy some stuffs for my notebook and most probably i will be jogging at ECP/running stairs again tomorrow night.....and oh btw....my hk relative just talked to me and he told me he is gonna sponsor me 2000 hkd =D gees...so nice of him....hehes..... -i will reveal the *SECRET* after i get confirmation of our status ^^

2007-10-29T13:54:00.000+08:00

hihis morning ^^ , okay...so had a pretty good sleep and am quite energetic now......so the first sms came from robin telling me to inform shir not to pay for her flight tickets and then the 2nd sms was when shir told me she aint coming cause she was too tired.....so yah....i called her earlier for awhile and hung up cause she was out =.=' and yah....while i was talking...i was like walking to the last room and i saw droplets of water from the sky and i was like "WTF" , its gonna rain when im about to play basketball?! so anyway....we are continuing our smses but im somehow trying to let her think we are friends....though it hurts my heart to do so...but i suppose theres nothing else i can do about it.....i mean like just recall the memories.....from my birthday till some days back....she has made my life so colourful yet now that i have to give her up is just like going back to black and white.......maybe birthday wishes are just FAKES....whatever i wished for just didnt come true....and because i dont think she will even come and read my blog...im gonna tell you guys what i wished for.....i wished for zewei to be back at least,to be my friend again and i wished to have shir for the rest of my life....pretty quick decision at that time but i mean...its very touching to have someone come all the way from so far to celebrate my birthday with me when im not even interested to celebrate? but i guess birthday wishes are just lies/tales made up to cheat people to make them happy.....so anyway,shir's ticket is on hold and most probably if she cant get her tickets,i will get robin and dorin to change our departure dates+ ^^ , oo yah...dont eat instant noodles when your very hungry cause i did that yesterday and i woke up wanting to puke midway through my sleep.... =.=' so...im gonna post again tonight most probably....gonna bath and basketball all the way till night..CHEERS! -and please pray it doesnt rain!!

2007-10-28T19:25:00.000+08:00

most probably you guys know that im having quite some problems right now...bt here,im going to tell you all about it.....to dennis,hongtek and justin,i am very sorry for my bad temper but it gets very stressful mid game when we are doing our best to win but our results come otherwise due to some stupid or careless mistakes....but im sorry anyway,i could only wish for forgiveness and hopefully,we could play BETTER games in the future......as for my previous post,its about relationships.....i believe its retribution now......so...why is it that everytime i get to like a girl so bad....i would end up getting my heart broken bad as well......i mean....just ask around.....i had not even gotten into a so called PROPER relationship....following sarah ann....i had tried to love again....but why is it that i keep failing....i admit im not gd in words and body language.....but why wont anyone just give me a chance......i had been doing my best to love and care but i always screw things up......maybe like i said before....maybe...i should be a bachelor..? i commited a mistake by telling zewei that i do not have feelings for any girls and she thought i didnt love her when what i wanted to say was...you dont have to worry that i would like someone else for my feelings for them are gone because i only love you....but she kinda misinterpreted it and there she goes.....then now....when i started to love this girl.....de problems came between friends and relationships and its over again.....less than 24 hours but its hurting me deeply for the feelings and memories i had for her......so what i could do is i could wait for her or i could give up on her......and i think i had made my decision......i dont know if im going to regret it but i feel that by loving someone,you should let her be happy even if its gonna cost u everything.....but anyway,as i think theres no chance of her going to like or love me again...most probably i will leave her be and hope she will find her happiness soon with only the hope that she might come back to me.....as for the welfare of my body.....my backs injured obviously while my left knee is feeling loose now,but training still goes on....and shall go on till the day i collapse......so anyway,im going basketball tomorrow and i think.....im back in action....for these few months i was so afraid of getting injured i dared not attempt to defend against dangerous plays but i think the time has come....its time to CRASH AND BURN? =D

2007-10-27T02:16:00.000+08:00

not a good day but yah...not gonna say anything out but its about relationships....so yah this is the conclusion......i started out with nothing,i came to marine parade with my pair of sandals and a rubber ball and these took me to the level of basketball i play now.....and i had earned many things and lost many things throughout....studies,relationships++ , but after today....i recalled....i came here as a boy with nothing,and why do i keep losing things when i keep getting them....so i feel maybe i should just go back to the start...... a basketball and my shoes....and i will keep away from everything else....=)) so then i wont lose anything else....it took me no time to adapt to getting new things cause im greedy,like humans should be....and its definately gonna take sometime to re-adapt to not having anything....but im ready for it.....well...d3vi1's back and hardcore training is back....=)) slipped disc? d3vi1 says NO FEAR...pain? d3vi1 says NO PAIN.....so...its time now to get myself up and running around.....boohoo....d3vi1's BACK....so without continuing further.....its TIME..FOR HELL!..... =D

2007-10-13T22:44:00.000+08:00

woke up early at 8.30am but lazed around till like 8.45am then started washing up so i boiled water and had my breakfast...3 pieces of bread with tuna and a cup of "yuan yang" ,then yah....its a rainy day but that didnt spoil our mood though.....i went into the snakes section and it took me sometime before i dared to like look at it and get closer to it.....so yah....dont think im as afraid of it anymore.....^^ ,so...came back around 5+ and had laksa for dinner at parkway,then went to play at the arcade and yah....had some fun despite losing some cash.....so yah...last but not least...last night,i had trouble sleeping...the thought of her just makes me go wondering and wondering....sigh....there are more information available but think im just gonna keep it to myself....going to watch some movies now...not sleeping early though...=((

2007-10-11T23:52:00.000+08:00

regrets are too late now...for i had paid for my air tickets....seeing my $404 fly like that feels so...HELPLESS....but okay....today,my grandma had gone back to hospital,so shes having the operation tomorrow and yah,hopefully she will come back soon...meanwhile,im home alone..AGAIN =)) , so today...played basketball and i was fired up on the first game.....played with these bunch of china guys....its like my first game ya know and they came to be so physical on me....like i was just standing and waiting for the ball to start,i get pushes from the guys around me.....so i got pissed and i went berserk....LOL......we won the game 11-10,i know its close..but what can i do when my team mates aint defending well.....im referring to THIS ONE GUY...the guy that can jump yet cant defend......its always him making me demoralised,like sure you wanna go ahead and shoot or score...but basketball is not only offence FOR YOUR INFO.....you can shoot,but ALL OF US CAN SHOOT TOO!.....and we aint bad shooters..again...FOR YOUR INFO.....so yah....i started to heat the game up when we were 5-0 down and i scored the first point to start our game....and yah...it went pretty well.....like when i was attempting to do my finger roll...i knew i was high up on air,so i used my left leg and tried kicking one of those guys....and guess what....i only wanted to get some physical damage to him...but sadly....for that guy....i kicked his balls instead....zhun right? LOL.....and the ball scored anyway...so yah....this was one of the games i played physically without losing my temper.....so yah..cheers ^^ , but after this game...its a friends game and its back to friendly mode =p , and yah...dinner at parkway then paid my air tickets and im back home.....so anyway....my slipped disc is giving me severe aches recently and yah...i guess i just gotta bear with it.... =)) and as for relationship.....theres a possibility she will read my nick....bt dont ever think she will unblock/chat with me.....so im like waiting for the impossible....i can only pray that she will give me this chance to at least be her friend.....maybe thats being silly but i think thats what love is.....until MAYBE when i find someone right for me....

2007-10-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

woke up kinda early today so yah...went to pick tat hang up at his school with robin then went to defu lane for lunch...and im extremely exhausted......like feeling im going to be knocked out any moment....but yah.....spent over $20 on arcade...i know its stupid but that game is so exciting and im like loving the thrill......so....yup...ended up watching Resident Evil at princess cinema-bedok and yah.....im very confused over the trip to hongkong....like yah..im gonna be happy maybe...but when i come home..im gonna be broke..!! maybe i should just save more money and buy myself a notebook and work from home....but anyway.....i had booked the tickets already...$404 and yah....i hope the price drops so i can re-book it and get the tickets at a cheaper price...either that or im gonna give the trip up....and yah...my muscles are still kinda injured....and my slipped disc is getting worse thanks to the exertion im giving in the ball games.....most probably gonna rest tomorrow so i can tune my muscles for a better gameplay on thursday......going watch some dvds and gonna sleep....take care all...who knows when my life is gonna end...=)

2007-10-09T00:21:00.000+08:00

lets start from sunday...so yah...after a nice sleep,tat hang called me to play basketball and yah....went down...started playing in fast pace but it wasnt good since the opponents wanted to play physical and i had bad games....till this "dirty" player comes in and like wtf.....i was already on air...doing my finger roll mid air and there he stand trying to catch me for a charging foul....like thats so dangerous la...fcuking hell....and whats worse was any GOOD players wouldnt have done that but to either attempt to block me off sideways or to let the other defender block me....so..he is a god dam fcuktard noob to me......i ended up releasing the ball immediately which it missed and i quickly landed trying to catch hold on him for support...fcuked up ok....if i had known...i would either have jumped up with 1 leg and knee him down or i will just land my elbow on his back or head when he was doing that to me......so pray hard that i dont master how to jump with 1 leg or im gonna fly with a leg in front knocking down players like him.....then went back home and had a late night watching DVDs...flushed away and Rob-B-hood...lols...then yah...went for basketball today....and it sometimes gets pissing off when your team mates give away balls unnecessarily...bt i think...thats just the difference in the levels of play......so yah...there were many outsiders today and yah....not trying to be arrogant but after they challenged us....we beat them match after match till they wanted to play amongst themselves.....the good thing is they are good sportsman and played hard but not dirty.....so when they asked to play amongst themselves....we knew that they had given up knowing they cant beat us.....but we do respect them for the game....for they came back every game to try to defeat us.....so yah...had dinner somewhere at 10pm...2 kosong and 1 egg prata with 2 ice milo =X ... gees....but ya..robin is gonna call me at 8.30am tmr to meet up with tat hang after his exams..so gonna sleep soon...bath and sleep ^^ and man...the joint on my right leg next to my bird bird is hurting.....pretty embarrassing to state here but...fcuk it ok...its annoying me for 2 days already >.<

2007-10-06T18:04:00.000+08:00

okay....im still as tired now but yah,like i said i would blog today.....im gonna start off with yesterdays' stuffs.....so yup,went to afew basketball courts ard bedok and fengshan till we settled down at bedok cc,i was practically exhausting my whole body as i had to take on multi roles and its god dam tiring i swear.....when we are winning like nobodys' business,i already told them that im getting tired cause of how much effort im putting in every game...scoring points,rebounding,making plays and you can say that its the basic of wad i should do....but let me tell you....you try doing it for every game and taking the lead role and doing everything you can just to help prevent your team from losing then you come talk to me about how easy it can get.....and whats worse was i make good plays and my team mates cant finish them off.....like im wasting so much energy and you are like throwing away the balls to the opponents and its god dam fcuking demoralising......and im supposed to like SMILE? and say nvm good try...? fuck it alright.....you all are tired,but wad about me....im single handedly taking on so many tasks at once and im not tired?....yah,and when your winning,i told you all about your mistakes...you glady accept them,and when we start losing and i tell you your mistakes,you come pushing the blame to me....!? like HELLO? if you guys had done a better job,would i have to go solo and risk my body just to score that point? like i even wanted to.....just thanks to you all that i have to go through this fcuking shit.....and what i get eh? body aches and soreness over my body....being extremely exhausted? just screw it ok.....im not gonna even comment on this dude who can jump and yet defend like a BARBIE.....fcuking useless fcuktard.....so end basketball here......im not going to hong kong already so yah....i think thats all.....as for the tagboard comments......i wont comment on it....think what you want,its all HISTORY to me already.....and i can tell you that i did put my heart in....but since she doesnt appreciate it,so be it.....and i will say even if she have a change of heart now,i wont be in the least interested anymore...

2007-10-05T04:27:00.000+08:00

its 4.25am right now and apparently...i cant sleep......this is gonna be long so yah....im gonna start off with the trip to hong kong.....so yup,robin and dorin wants me to go to hong kong with them but despite me telling them that i wont have enough money to spare,they said they will lend me and stuffs like that....its getting pretty stressful because i just got my 2 weeks pay and i dont wanna spend it unncecessarily....so yah,flight ticket around $370,they said we could stay at robin's uncle place and i would pay my air tickets and my spendings....but i mean...i worked for my earnings and just because you want to enjoy yourselves and you want me to go with you...im gonna have to spend my hard earned money on that single vacation...? i mean....i worked hard cause i need the money for myself and so...im gonna have to make a decision tomorrow.....to let them be happy yet get myself pathetic by agreeing and buying the tickets straight tomorrow OR im gonna piss them off by saying i dont wanna go so yup...following that....basketball... so....i went to marine parade's cc match yesterday and man....marine parade got knocked hard....losing somewhere 50 points.....its really giving me alot of stress to know that i will be in that team next year.....its like....so what if a player is good or not...cause the team aint good at all....!!! so next year...im either gonna perish with the team and make myself a loser OR im gonna bring the team to the next level......big responsibility...?? not really....i had seeked advice from uncle reno and yah...i will just do what i can to help the team i suppose....so,like i said its 4.34am now as i typed this =p and i need a sleep badly RIGHT THIS MOMENT! im gonna have to go to telok kurau pri to return a cable lock which i took and then to CGH to visit both my granny and grandma.....so,estimated time i wake up is ard 10.30am and im so so gonna be tired tomorrow......considering the fact im gonna play basketball at bedok cc/fengshan cc after visiting my granny and grandma.....and whats worse is im expecting to have to play twice as hard since my friend whose a "Center" is having an operation tomorrow.....so it means more burden on my shoulders but arghh....im just gonna screw it.......as for now....im just gonnna say something from the bottom of my heart.......hell yes i had been looking for someone who suits me....but right this moment....im missing this particular girl.....its been months since i last talked to her......ever since we so called broke off.....she ignored me and stuffs like that....but i tried moving on......i moved on...and it seems like im back to square one now......shes been running in my head this past hour and i really cant sleep and i doubt i can concentrate tomorrow......i know shes not gonna come back to me but im praying she will.....hais.....this is getting into my head so much.....

2007-09-24T22:51:00.000+08:00

im very tired and stressed out but nobody cares.... xD so nevermind...i spent $50+ today on 1 pants and 2 shirt...and arcade tokens...gees....budget right? but i still feel its alot le...=(( so i spent my lunch break today with another guy who wants me to do web designing+ for his site...offering me $200-300 which i agreed....even though im stressed out.....so yah...ended up with my breakfast and lunch in the hall control room alone at 3.30pm.....eating secretly....lols.....then yah went to play basketball though i was having some headache the whole day.....and now im totally exhausted...and whats worse was i got less than 2 weeks to present my web design to the guy........tomorrow gonna be alone for mooncake festival i suppose....hais....maybe its just romantica...ME =(

2007-09-22T01:36:00.001+08:00

things are moving for the better now.....im starting to establish myself as a member in the school and so its not a good nor bad thing.....in the sense people are gonna call me for help which is a bad thing cause i will be busier .....but i will be able to establish gd friendship with teachers which is a good thing as well....so anyway......its getting busier and busier for me and like today....i worked 15 hours over with just 5 hours of sleep the night before....so yah....had the mooncake festival which ended me rushing like a mad cow....having to make sure verything goes well......microphones...audio system++ so anyway.....i had only been going for meals which takes less than 30 minutes everyday!! omg....but yah....my contract is ending and i dont have any decisions yet.....my senior told me to ask for a payrise or i shall just quit stating its a very busy job and the pay aint good...bt i dont know.....will decide again....so anyway....gonna slack a little and sleep soon....last week of work soon.... =)

2007-09-17T00:14:00.000+08:00

just got home from chalet....kinda tired and most probably gonna take an m/c tomorrow....really very tired and i dont think i can make it on time tomorrow.....so anyway....didnt do much in the chalet.....just entertaining myself actually and some kids.... =p and yeah.....didnt even play ball cause of the rain......so nothing much actually...gonna play basketball tomorrow though =D nites

2007-09-14T19:01:00.000+08:00

i got nothing much to say while going through this hard time but i guess im gonna have to walk this road alone.......the only thing i want to say is...."im not as strong as you think i am....." hais...

2007-09-12T18:35:00.000+08:00

today is the first day of work...got up at 5.10 with a stiff neck..didnt sleep well obviously....woke up every 2 hours till 5.10 so yah...i stayed on till 5.20 before getting up and got prepared and at 6.10am...i left my house wearing my ankle weights...but i came home to remove it cause its hurting my cuts....so yeah....rushed out again and luckily got to school before 7am....there were some good and bad times while i was working so yah....not gonna explain it cause its gonna be a long story.....so anyway...i did an extra hour today cause 1 teacher came in to use the comp lab....man.....that time i was supposed to go home already!! but nevermind....gotta be in school by 7am tomorrow and so yah....i hope everything turns out well....gonna rest soon.. =)

2007-09-10T23:53:00.000+08:00

just got home from dunman food court....so yeah....played basketball today abit and went off for my haircut.....so yah...were talking about issues over robin's chalet this sunday and just crapping around....so anyway,tomorrow is my interview at telok kurau primary school so hopefully i get the job cause if not,i will have to settle for the other job which will pay at $6/hour......so yah....gonna find a route there for myself tomorrow and then head to sleep...^^

2007-09-09T18:53:00.000+08:00

im so happy today i got my phone back from the repair center.....so yah....i chat with her for a while earlier before i went back to sleep and yeah....its all over...^^ and we dont even have to meet again.....she must have been so happy...lols...after delaying and delaying our meetings......now she doesnt have to meet me....its gotta be her dream come true....so anyway...doesnt affect me much or should i say it doesnt affect me at all cause its far behind me now......so yeah....earlier this noon i had fried sotong and i almost choked on it.....LOL.....then whats worse was after i finished slurpee my heart started to feel hot and tight and for once i thought im going to dio aesthma.....but yeah....i just beared with it for like 15-30 minutes before i start feeling better....so so i think i wont touch slurpee anymore....lol......so anyway.....like i said before....if shes not gonna meet on monday ,then im going for basketball and tomorrow....like i keep my word...its gonna be game time.....^^

2007-09-08T22:34:00.000+08:00

okay....just got home from jogging and yeah.....was running with yiming and mid way through....this indian uncle came to us from behind and started running with us.....so we were chatting while jogging and yeah...time past us quickly and he is heading forward while me and yiming had to do a detour cause he was heading for the esplanade...he was training for his 42km marathon so yah......its a hard run back as the weights were killing me.....i wanted to add on about "her" but since she comes here......i will not post those stuffs here anymore.....and if anyone wanna know about my thinkings on this relationship....you can just come to me face to face and ask me.....so before i end this post....i just want you all to know that im feelin good as in i aint upset over her....cause.....i was lucky to fall but because i had my own "safety precaution"...i saved my own ass.....now....i got a new chance and i will take it......whatevers over...WAS over....its time for something new....^^ woots!!

2007-09-08T15:31:00.000+08:00

what a sleep....i was enjoying it so much till some kids had to start screaming names from the void deck and wake me up from my sleep and im getting pissed right this moment......fcuking hell.... i swear they carry on shouting i will go down and either confront them or i will start throwing things down at them....i fucking hell hate people who disturb my sleep.......so now i had news about my uncle....seems he had no alternative and asked to sell off the house at marine parade.....i aint happy of course but to recall how well he has been treating me since young....i feel i should just abide by his decision.....i mean...he had done so much for me since young even taking care of me......and now he claims he has come to an end and requested to sell the house.....i may have no say in selling the house but i had been staying here these years.....and of course kinda used to the environment somehow.....but well....we shall see what happens next......so anyway.....its some kinda fcuking rude to like not reply smses? msged her last night....this noon and all no replies....just wanted a confirmation from her for monday and she didnt even wanna reply? how nice right.....? i mean if someone asked you out and you aint free or don wanna go....its always fine to say your not free AT THE VERY LEAST right? but what am i getting? NO replies and being kept a fool to wait? im like fucking lucky this time i didnt fall for her tt much since the previous lessons from other girls or i will be in fcuking shit......so....if she EVER reply she will meet on monday which is a CONFIRMED decision.....i will just go and meet up....if not.....i will be at MPCC playing basketball....woots....so her decision aint as important right now anyway? nah nah dont care la....ahahahah.....later go east coast jogging with my ankle weights.....and this time round i will surely wear stuffs to protect my skin from getting cut...haha......and yah.....my hand is still the same so might be a slight bone crack i think....but who cares....lol....so anyway....since im going jogging maybe around 6+,i might update my post at 8+ or so....till then....ciaos...=D

2007-09-08T00:25:00.000+08:00

today.....i played basketball at sengkang cc with justin,dennnis,teck....so yah...nearly an hour's ride there and we lost the first match cause i was just warming up and was trying to see how strong their standard was......so yah....things started to pick up for us and we started doing our roles......win and lost but i had done way much today....covering "backdoors" as usual and its just tiring to just do so much and it sure gets frustrating when you lose.....i had problems in between games and im not gonna hide it.....but i had to keep reminding myself that this game belongs to US and i shall not let my memories or thinkings run loose.....played a last game against the filipinos and yah.....fcuking dirty players as usual....so now this had pissed me way off so im gonna train on my ankle weights...and retrain my jumping to 1 foot jump.....cause its safer and easier to dunk over people.....so yah.....when im done...i will go back and do what i said i would......got injured in the process not with filipinos but another NOOB player....fcuktard alright.....he elbowed me on my soft side of my elbow....right at the joints and now im having problems.....and well....at least they had more girls at seng kang cc than any other places we played but it will be some time before me and the others reconsider going back.......at least some months.......and like i said i wont post anything bout relationships...i wont...so end here guys......im way too tired now....nites

2007-09-06T22:19:00.000+08:00

didnt feel good when i got up but i had to push myself to get up to meet mavis at palawan beach,shes just a old secondary school friend so dont get the wrong ideas.....spent $12 on taxi excluding $2 admission fee at sentosa and what could be better but getting LOST....yeah i got lost.....but i found my way back after like 30 minutes....so she introduced me to some of her friends and for that moment...just talking and slacking and after awhile...i went off to mpcc.....
so anyway...she sent me a msg and i think we both have our differences sorted out.....im gonna keep them private though cause i think its between me and her so yah sorry guys.....but i wont be saying it out.....so back to basketball.....obviously....im completely way off form but i forced myself to play.....and one thing i kept trying to get into my head was....."i got nothing left...its basketball now and i gotta do my job.." today's games were played badly cause i couldnt keep my mind straight at it....obviously im still holding back.....but im hoping it wont be for long......i will self console myself and be strong.....and regarding the blog...due to some personal reasons...i will stop blogging till further notice..... =)

2007-09-05T23:12:00.000+08:00

pretty lucky the agent for the job in a school called me and told me to go for an interview this coming friday......so i am kinda thankful i did not take up yesterday's job....but on 2nd thoughts...who knows if im gonna pass the interview or not.....cause i did not state how long i can work...so thats troubling me.......second thing here is im not gonna blog anymore about relationships cause i....lets just say i gave up.......she has her own circle of friends and it doesnt even matter if i leave my circle of friends to be with her right? i mean....i can give up my friends for a girl because afterall....im gonna spend the rest of my lifetime with her......not my friends....but yah....another problem is i dont have a stand in her heart anyway......pretty obvious she dont like me and so ya.....she has someone she likes as well....why should i go in being a 3rd party......so...lets forget it....forget the tears im dropping...forget my feelings....im going out for some drinks and i dont think i will be home tonight later on...... btw,thanks lingling for being here for me but sometimes.....theres a limit to how much you can help....but anyway.....i appreciate it though...

2007-09-04T20:34:00.000+08:00

lets see....went for 3 interviews today under the same agent...so yah...everything went well till the 3rd one who only offered $5.50/hour....and things went worse when i was on my way back home......the 3rd interviewer called me to go back to sign a contract cause she got me a job...and she wants me to go back that badly...which i wasnt really intending to....cause its far and crowded....and whats more....im also waiting for the reply from a school regarding an application i made....so.....i had to turn it down but couldnt find a good way....so i tried talking her round to not let me get the job.....but she just wanted to "force" me to take it....whatever i said...she just shoot back =.=' so yah....finally she got pissed and said....want or not...and i said..."sorry no,thank you and byebye"....hopefully she wont go and complain or post my resume with bad comments to her other departments or im doomed....lols..but i mean.....shes eating 50cents/hour more than the other departments ok? and im really not happy about it......so yah....i donated $5 to dono whatever organisation at paya lebar there.....but whatever.....so yah....smsed her and even talked to her on the phone till that stupid interviewer called me again and i had to so called find a way to save myself.....but yah.....lets just hope that the school accepts my application or i will be really gone case and gotta start resending my resume.....regarding relationships......i think....i will most probably leave it be.....maybe till she shows some affection or interest in me....till then....im really moody right now......so gonna end here....

2007-09-03T17:18:00.000+08:00

i went to sleep at 9am today and i got a call somewhere at 10am from an employer....i was so happy midway through the phone as i fulfied all requirements he asked....till the last part....when is your army gonna end? and i said...im not yet enlisted and he told me sorry but he needed someone who could work for a longer period of time so screw army.....then i went back to sleep and 2 hours later....a recruitment agency called me to ask me to go for interview tomorrow at ngee ann city for the job i applied "Pharmacy Assistant",so i was regretting it....imagine someone with IT knowledge end up working in a pharmacy...omg....singapore needs more doctors eh......so i got another call from the same agency hours later for the post "Call Service Operator",so fixed a time as well...so yah...gonna be interviewed for 2 jobs tomorrow.....will decide which one suits me better.....so anyway.....she smsed me earlier....it seems that she cares about me....yet it doesnt seem so.....so yah....i was really tired but i managed to hold on to the phone and keep the sms going......so....she pushed the date back again.....next monday....hais.....just shoot me in the heart or head.....i must either be a silly guy or a stupid guy.....then considering the fact if i start work by next week....how do i have time to watch a movie with her since i will be working office hours and only have night time for her which she cant make it......i want to be positive but from the way it looks.....i really have no idea what to do......maybe she was hinting to ask me to wait for her? or giving me time to stay away from her? i really dont know...my heart and mind are in a mess right now...haix.....

2007-09-02T23:14:00.000+08:00

mmm....did nothing today....didnt message her and stuffs...so anyway....my dad came today and told me privately on future plans and im not really looking forward to it...cause i i know i have to work real hard now......considering the facts on future studies and the facts that i want to have my own car and stuffs like that....im practically being an idiot now actually.....knowing she wont msg me initiatively and yet im not making an effort to msg her...and the reason? i know shes out and having a good time and i dont wanna disturb her.....stupid right? i mean shouldnt i at least make an effort to at least msg her and ask how shes doing? so anyway...... she cant confirm if she can make it this coming friday and i dont think im pinning much hopes actually.....so yah....honestly speaking....i think she wont fall for me...so all these while...i had always tried not to get so close but when she told me shes not ready kinda stuffs 2 days back.....i felt its gone case already...felt so much like she stepped on my heart and my heart bursted.....then when she told me she still liked someone else.....it got so much worse when i had to claim that i will make a step backwards so that she can choose to be with him....its like im making hell for myself...haix..so called try to be a hero the first day to know that im loser the 2nd day...... please tell me gravity was the reason why my tears fell..... =*(

2007-08-31T22:28:00.000+08:00

maybe im just unworthy of her....maybe im just ugly....maybe im just not good enough...so ya....i decided to take a step back now when relationships are concerned.....i mean like i wrote years back about sarah ann....love is about letting her be happy right....even if your gonna be real upset over it....im not trying to bring up the past but to bring out one of the facts on what love is.....maybe thats a wrong decision for me but maybe that decision could please her......so anyway...gonna wash up in a little and go training again.....i really wish somebody can just hit me with something hard and knock me out for good......

2007-08-31T21:13:00.000+08:00

obviously she aint msged me a whole day now....kinda getting alittle unhappy but nvm....so today....i went to mountbatten cc for basketball...got there ard 1+pm....was so hot there alright...under the hot sun....and worse thing was that there aint any challengers there.....there were people but they were not up to standard so yah....went to a food court near there and shared cab back to marine parade cc as we played.....so yah....talked alot about basketball with hongteck and justin before coming home but the real problem for me lies beneath the heart.....hais.... =((

2007-08-30T21:51:00.000+08:00

so today.....msged her in the morning a little while before sleeping but it was scary when the strong winds kept blowing.....got this phobia ever since i got caught in a storm while fishing.....so yah....i was pretty afraid and hid in the other room and fell asleep due to pure exhaustion....so....when i got up...i went to play basketball.....brought my shoes along but that doesnt matters....made it more painful instead....so i was just training my shooting actually....and before i forget....this morning....my leg was so itchy and painful....but i had no medicines or so....i took hot water and poured it on my open cuts....which is so... >.< better not to explain it yeah? gonna stay home tomorrow i think....i cant play basketball anyway so i rather not bring the team down.....so yah...im gonna try to get well by sunday as i want to go for try outs in the marine parade basketball team....so anyway...since her exams are over...hopefully she could have more time for me.....so yah....she said about meeting next week....so i hope i could make it a happy time for her when we meet..... imissher and im still waiting for her msgs/calls.....but till then....my wrist is still hurting so im gonna end here...nights =)

2007-08-29T23:17:00.001+08:00

this morning...like i said...i msged her and she replied but i was already asleep....kinda subconscious state so yah....seems shes kinda worried for her next exam...so...lets hope she does well for this upcoming exam ^^ , so i went to play basketball even though my leg hurts....of course i bought plasters...7 of them but it all had no use as my skin started to come off....exposing to dust and stuffs...it hurts me every step i make but i know i had to overcome the pain and do a better job....its every player's responsibility right? so...kinda beared with the pain and played the games......hell it hurts but whats more hurting than an heartache? then i went to dinner and ya...went to parkway arcade where i played some kinda games....and i realised i was so noob in arcade games......hehes....i was being laughed at in every game i played...even tt basketball shooting game!! hahas.....im noob alright...so sadly....my friend got his phone and wallet stolen.....roughly know who he was but we couldnt recognise him anyway as we were playing our games and laughing each other off......made a police report and the police closed the police station...and i was like....change my I/C address? so we went to marine parade NPP and i got it changed...^^ so....anyway....my wrist is hurting so im gonna end here....i miss her but i really wish she can spare some time for me..... =((

2007-08-29T04:47:00.000+08:00

so....it seems stupid to make this post because i dont know why i wanted to do so....so,anyway...just like lingling said...she could be busy and true...she is...with her exams...so yah...gonna wish her luck later on....so yah...i went jogging with ankle weights on and its not tiring...but PAINFUL as friction rubs onto my skin....i had cuts on both legs and blisters too....had a hard time bathing just now.....so...yah....wednesday,thursday,friday...these 3 days means basketball and im really afraid of over exhaustion.....i know my knee cant take much more but im gonna over strain it anyway....meanwhile...while i was out chatting with dennis+,we had many issues on mpcc bball team...so im somehow eager to join them despite the winning attitude aint there....you know...i really wish to be the one to get into the team and keep the morales high and start winning for the sake of marine parade.....but all i know now is im afraid to get overstrained....but theres nothing i can do to cover up a broken piece of heart.....i will just...basketball...basketball...and basketball..... =( wish her luck in her exams though...hopefully...she wont forget me.....i hope!

2007-08-26T19:48:00.000+08:00

wow ooh wow....its been months since i ever came back to my own blog....like 3 months since my last post? i almost forgot about this blog yah....so anyway...these 3 months seems such a long period for me.....not knowing why but so many things have happened....i guess...nothing can stop the earth spinning just like nothing can stop us aging.....so i dont even know what to talk about right now.....basketball? relationships? i mean....i dont even know where to start anymore......and the reason why i came back is cause someone reminded me so....but well....i dont even know if there is a need for me to blog since no one reads right....like i can go around scolding everyone in my blog without anyone knowing.....and btw...how can i love you when u dont talk to me..... =(

2007-05-09T01:08:00.000+08:00

its tuesday and ya.....went to anchorvale to play but well.....not a really good day......its fine having to have the soles of my feet teared....cause of the friction...but i still had a collision with one of the big guys and his knee went banging straight on my thigh and its so tight now......not feeling good seriously......but playing there certainly seems to make me feel closer to home though i stay at marine parade.....maybe its because of zewei ba....she stays at punggol.....and i just felt i was closer......so next week....i think i would still go there again.....but hopefully without any injuries.....and ya when i reached home earlier,the moon was so low and orange....and now the wind keeps blowing in......maybe a storm again =(( but ya.....gonna play some games now....^^

2007-05-01T18:37:00.000+08:00

im feeling kinda shocked and upset now actually.......went fishing yesterday.....and who knows the fishing part gave such an experience......i was a bedok jetty and all seemed fine till all of a sudden...a strong gust of wind blew my cap out of my head....so nvm....but in some seconds...heavy raindrops came pouring in and the wind was like so fierce......many stuffs flying around and it only took seconds to make me feel so cold and numb......took the bike and cycled off......so that was way worse cause of the wind....but i had to bear with it and ya......shivering as i rode away.....sigh......woke up earlier and i was still kinda shocked.....and actually i miss her......after that time when she replied me.....i aint contacted her and though i miss her....i doubt i would do anything......but there are so many things relating to her which keeps getting on my mind.......so i just wanna stress out here im blogging about this cause i really cant take it anymore.......

2007-04-18T18:07:00.000+08:00

okay......i admit its been sometime since i promised to blog the earlier post.....im getting lazy so ya im sorry.....>.< mmm....met a few friends recently.....so ya...i actually went to sengkang to play basketball yesterday...anchorvale there i think.......and i was omg.....the floor texture so slippery....and i knew my shoes dont have the grip there but i still carried on playing.....and i lost 3 games.....i cant run...cant dribble...cant do anything well with the floor and it was pissing me off so much i took my shoes off and played bare footed on my 4th game when we started to win then.....so ya....if i ever go there again,i aint bringing my shoes.... =.=' so relationship wise....devastated.....i somehow cant get over her.....and she just ignores me.....smses no replies.....sigh.....and im like feeling so "alone" right now.....no purpose in life right now......so ya....basketball tomorrow....bt thats another 24 hours .....i hope i can make it through then....im really so so out of mood right now...i'd be glad if anyone would be there for me .....=(

2007-04-03T20:08:00.000+08:00

alright...im help because of a few things.....firstly....i went for medical check up bt i was refered to CGH,so ya....results? suspected slipped disc.....need an MRI to confirm so ya....im not in a good condition afterall.....but still...im into basketball.....i was very off recently till yesterday when i almost fell off then i became pissed and actually started playing well......so ya....might take some time to train it back.....then the real thing that made me blog is afterall....a girl....alright....i doubt she will come back to this blog and ever read.....but....im still going to take the chance.....you see.....i miss her.....shes been in my mind these while no matter how hard i try to forget her....her name? right....zewei.....i once blogged about her.....i still care for her as much but its like i couldnt get her again......im even willing to fracture both my hands again to see her or even be with her.......she has played a major role in my life and shes just that important to me....i want her that much but she wont know......sighs....as for studies...i might enrol into MDIS to get a diploma in IT then go to army ba....
to: zewei...i miss u...please give me a chance to make it up to you....i still care and want you that much

2007-03-09T00:57:00.000+08:00

around 2 months without blogging,so im gonna update what i remember here.....firstly...i went to kukup on valentines day.....so yeah...was in malaysia that day....saw so many couples la....even see uncle buy a dozen of roses...rich malaysians....LOL.......then we have my projects....final year project.....so anyway...im seriously screwed in it......i finished my Flash project for the whole team,helped directing in another project-Video shooting....bt my friend who claimed to get it done..DID NOT......so i was somehow told by the teacher tt my marks would get deducted.....so yeah.....instead....i did my own video.....and on the day of submission,i got screwed by the teacher again....she wants it in CD format by 12pm, if not, points will get deducted even for late submission...and she was giving ideas to deduct my points....sadly...i was too smart to fall for it....haha.....with an empty stomach..i rushed all e way back to parkway-Popular....first thing i said...FCUK.....11am then open...then i went parkway....so yah...got the CD at harvey norman and rushed home to burn it......reached sch again at 11.30am....and when i handed it up....you would love the way the teacher look....a disappointed evil face...muahahax.....she was like...WTF!!! ahaha.....sadly, shes unable to screw me that day...unless she do it secretly by giving me low marks ya? but yea......as i submitted both my projects...i did not include my team members.....so in some way,im my own leader and member....taking all credits and blame.....bt i don care....better than being failed thanks to them......then ya....i appealed at NYP and applied for RP under the DAE....hopefully will get in.....then went for check up for NS...pes D.....lols....got another check up on 27th march......and today...during bball...i had wisened up....so called matured le......lols....todays a good day...nice blocks....good def....nice assists.....points wise are ok.....but yeah.....somebody was absolutely pissed after a foul i gave.....wanted to pick up a fight bt too bad i cant be bothered.....lols.....why bother diao-ing someone when you are not/dont even dare to hit him? so ya....how the foul was made? he went for a layup and instead of blocking him...i slapped the ball down quite hard instead.....and why he got angry? i had been thinking about it and there are 2 reasons...either a sore loser or i happened to hit part of him physically....bt who says basketball wasnt physical...if you cant take that,just play ping pong? at least i wasnt playing dirty.......so yea.....i somehow learnt that you can be a very good basketballer.....but if you dont adopt the right attitude and character...you may not get the respect from others........so with that...im gonna end off here....what a entertaining day !! =)

2007-01-13T00:38:00.000+08:00

rainy nights.....kept on coming....

the raindrops keep on falling...

my tears fell like...raindrops from this dark night...

on this rainy night....

i^ sat by my comp....

writing this silly song...

and i said...i would be strong...

not to let my tears fall....

but the truth is painful

i can never hold onto my tears...

and i cried so hard.....

to know that...i.. have lost you...

oh baby come back to me....

its all that i could wish for....

on this rainy night...

i sat alone...

with tears flowing down my cheeks...

and you dont know....

2007-01-10T21:40:00.000+08:00

school has started and i have been late these 2 days, and indeed,the new teachers scuked..especially jee yen,having so high expectations are good,bt does she even know how much trouble it is......dam her alright.....project teacher govind was fine....just that i dislike the fact he kept asking me to do things his way instead of mine......so anyway, govind is better than jee yen,and i rather fei hong teach me again..screw the new teachers alright,im not gonna give high points in their survey this term.....so anyway,im broke for the week,went for movie yesterday , watched blood diamond,not bad a show.....so ya...i ran home from bedok to marine parade last night,took around 30-45 minutes on foot......my muscles are numbed so ya....im not having a good day,on the court and on the phone? regarding my relationships......im so sick of this life alright....i got so much stress with my own school work,my finance and now relationships and friends.....screw it alright......im going back to my old days.......even on the basketball court.....im a forward,not some kinda point guard,why do i go around making passes when i can score myself.....and since that somebody doesnt believe me,i shant make her believe me anyway.......so screw it,next....finance....if i dont go out so often,i need not waste money,so im going to stay indoors,to do my projects or revise......seng's bday tomorrow.....had an arguement earlier but nvm......life is fcuked up anyway.......

2007-01-07T19:35:00.000+08:00

its been over a month since i last blogged,mainly because i aint mentally prepared to blog about some stuffs when im unhappy,so ya....days ago,i went to malaysia with robin,seng and dorin.....so i bought a ps2 for 580rm,inclusive of 50 games...and 2 controllers,and we were thinking..DAM,how do we import 50 cds in....but anyway,we managed to without being caught....=p lucky though....so anyway, recent news would be that my knee cap has loosened thus lowering my standard of play in basketball,however,its very fcuked up on saturday when i played full court against philipinos,i was on a row all the time against them till these 2 guys came into my team and screwed me up,i did my part as a point guard,they failed to do their job leading my team to get trashed,so wtf.....robin and tat hang tried helping,bt those 2 morons were tough enough to piss us off......so screw them....im sick of it.....im a forward by right and i would have done the job unlike them,so screw them.... school is starting and im dying hair right now,but dont seem like gt colour..ROARS....lols....so ya school is starting and its time to bulk up...gd nite

2006-11-27T23:31:00.000+08:00

so long didnt post but here i am......im broke....okay...on friday......i was at east coast,approached a korean girl for number...asked 2 times...almost got into bicycle accident somemore.....but got the number anyway........and sadly...im broke now...outta cash....dammit.....skipped school today to meet her and learn korean......meeting her tomorrow again....but i think i would give it a day off on wednesday since i got exams i think....and i dont want her to find me irritating....but shes sweet looking anyway.....lols......so ya.....today,went for basketball though floor was wet......just had some games and had dinner at max's working place.....hehes.....then came home and ya.....since im meeting her friend and her at 1pm,im gonna sleep soon...you see......i just did some research for her friend and gotta hand it over to her....so ya....good night....gonna study for exam tomorrow.....good6 to me xD

2006-11-22T03:15:00.000+08:00

alright........tuesday.... so yea....school at bedok, finished my project for ecard finally and i think teacher is quite pleased with it....sadly,hes leaving us next term....sobs......hes so nice to us la....kaox......so.....met up with tat and went to buy bubble tea first before heading to class......so ya...had lunch at prata shop eating nasi briyani......then...went back to school to finish my project...so ya...its done and im therefore.....more relieved.....stress stress go away.....xD then , after school..came to bball court and was like so lazy to play cause i was like so sleepy and tired......but in the end,as there were outsiders....i decided to change and play instead....so ya.....completely out of form today...what can u expect..hehe.....u end up laughing at ur opponents half the time....completely restless how to play properly...bt ya...still won...lols...lucky lucky.....then after tt 1 match,headed home....and had a sleep......then woke up ard 11pm then was awaked til now......gonna take a nap soon and wake up in a few hours for school.....freaking leg hurts..ROAR!....bt good night anyway....~

2006-11-17T23:32:00.000+08:00

well...i messed everything up.....i thought there was 2 NBA games today..woke up at 11..thought i missed it,so waiting for the replay at 5pm......end up....DONT HAVE!!!....then i was...wtf....then check the schedule....then diaos....is saturday...LOL.......so ya....gonna watch it tomorrow......didnt have a gd sleep la....backaches...crap....so ya......today,i installed quite a few programs on my comp,my webcam... blurry de cause cheapskate de....and NJ Star to type chinese,and my NERO cd...to burn cds...xD so....anyway......didnt play basketball today,count it as a rest day......since i had played so much yesterday,i should rest my muscles as a reward........just watched ghost whisperer and ya....its always so touching.....hais.....then later...should be meeting robin and tat hang+ for supper.......post again..ciaos

2006-11-17T02:33:00.000+08:00

alright.....dont ask me why im not asleep yet...cause i got no school tomorrow...hees.....went to class as normal..did some mock test practice and ya...learnt alot alot......hopefully,i would be able to get good grades for my practical test in some weeks to come........then went to basketball....and what could i say...? MAGNIFICIENT......reason being...i managed to make quite a couple of blocks today.......you know,you dont see me rejecting pple at all even when i can jump tt high...but today.....i made so many blocks......though my scoring % aint good,i made it up with defence and abit of assists....hehes.....uncle reno was quite pissed with 1 guy...and he is so so so fit.....those like train gym de loz....but sadly......he got rejected by me quite afew times.....muscles yet no brains...lmao.....so ya...blocked and blocked.....but his team win la...wad could u expect from a 2-man team in a 4-4 match...LOL.....11-10..1 ball nia.....so nvm.....so he so poor thing...cause....after that......we continued our games and seng rejected him without jumping...LMAO.......so he got rejected again.... =.=' , he buey sian..we sibei sian....lols......okie...lets stop bragging......but its really fun la.....since my timing ha improved so much.....just train back my shooting % can liao ba.......quite a couple of scratches on my hands now....lols.......bt nvm....gonna try doing my flash again.....if it still cant work,just have to bring it to teacher on monday and hope he helps......not to forget...i rejected SHU XIONG....lols...a monster rejection.....muahahax...slamming his ball back to his direction so hard....it went out straight within 1-2 seconds.....shhh....xPpP......gonna sleep now....over exhausted from today's games...so ya...gd night all!! ^^

2006-11-16T01:34:00.000+08:00

well well.....skipped my first lesson yesterday as i was too tired to wake up....i was on the project and ya....took quite along of my energy.....then yea.....went for my 1pm lesson which teaches AUTHORWARE,im so sick of it alright.....but yeah....we were supposed to form groups for another project and i may have made the most stupid decision one could ever make......instead of choosing people capable of doing good work,i chose to be with a group of friends who dont attend class all e time....so i guess im expected to do everything now........so ya...im starting to get pressured.......lucky for me,class ended earlier and i manaegd to get back at 4.30pm instead of 6pm.....went to the basketball court...play afew games till like 6.30 and headed home......tried troubleshooting my project but still...cant get it to work....so i guess i need to get more clear instructions tomorrow.....so ya......i gave away my maple account off to my friend's friend......imagine my millions in that account which i could sell....well.......nvm ba......giving away my GunZ account as well...so if anybody wants it...its at level 14......just let me know......now...the reason why im sick of authorware is because you see...after wednesday's lesson on authorware,i got authorware lesson on thursday AGAIN...1-6pm......so dam crap.....so ya....gonna bring clothes tomorrow for basketball....my leg hurts though.....sometimes,you make false hopes to make yourself feel better.....however,thats not the case for me.....im facing the fact my leg can never be cured of its ache........so ya...sleeping now.....good night ^^

2006-11-15T00:35:00.000+08:00

alright..just past midnight,been on the comp these few hours.....rushing my project,its not completed but yeah..uploaded it here " http://img134.imageshack.us/my.php?image=projectqv8.swf " , not a really good piece of work but i did my best,failed to make the pictures enlarge and auto play upon click,so gonna ask teacher tomorrow...hees......well well....so i said no more games.....and i somehow did it,if you dont include Solitaire from windows,practically,i didnt play anything else......lol.....didnt go for supper with seng,robin+ now as im so tired after doing this project,and besides the fact that i got sch tmr,i dont wanna eat chicken rice....LOL.....mmm...i suppose if i was playing game,i should have been mapling.....and ya days ago.....i created a big mess...xD and i lost some friends on the way...but seriously,i dont even consider them as friends......you see guys would please girls all e time,but because i dont even treat them as friends,i cant really be bothered......since SHE is just taking me for granted,not naming anyone,so stop assuming.....lol.....hopefully i could end school early tomorrow cause i wanna train my basketball and obviously..finish up my project.......hmmm...obviously i would have more time now,so i guess i would look forward to getting new ideas for my next few projects....no more exams for me..just projects to determine my grades....so......working hard.....GAMES...alright....comments from me on games would be......you either have too much time to waste or you are just a kid or still a kid....unless you are playing those kinda "thinking" games.....so ya.....basketball.....its not my priority neither......so ya.....school work is more important than anything else......gonna have a bath ad go to sleep,dont wanna be late for school tomorrow......good night bloggie....^^

2006-11-14T17:52:00.000+08:00

went to bedok for school though i so so dont wanna go......but i was like thinking..BUBBLE TEA....so end up going la...haha.....reached class and was so boring.....copied some files for my project on e card then around 11.45am,we went off to bedok for lunch...so ya....supposed to continue the lesson but my group of friends didnt return.....we did have an argument though...haha...flipped coins++ but in the end...NEVER go back....LOL.....went back home and had a nap and went for basketball.....so yeah......played 1-1 against jacky...played a good game wor...though lost both games.....11-6,11-8......i managed to do a better job against him this time round.....but sadly...punishments added up to 50 pushups...LOL......then came home loz....too tired to carry on playing......gonna start doing my project soon......mmmm,aint sure whats got into me....but ya.....i dont feel the urge to play games anymore......just wanna study hard/work hard.........and find myself a good gf.....time to settle down le....xD so yeah...im able to change my phone this coming december....so mmm..bye bye to my HARDCORE 7250I =D , never gonnna forget you sweetie!

2006-11-11T04:41:00.000+08:00

just home not long ago.....went out to meet up with robin,seng,tat hang...so ya....went to geylang area there ate at a prata shop....dont know what i ordered but yeah....cost me $3 for the food and 70 cents for teh tarik....so nice man the teh tarik.....hehe.....then went off to a nearby estate to slack....its at haig road...xD so ya....a common place for us when we go riding......then we were just chatting and chatting....enjoying ourselves as much......so...lets seee....hours back....i suffered 1 hour of pain....sinseh came to treat my injured leg...so there i was lying in pain.....bt after all these pain...my leg's still not recovered...CRAP!!! most probably calling him over on sunday or tuesday........pain is just a measurement of how much you can take....and i simply dont care about it.....xD so ya....watched chicago bulls vs cavaliers and im starting to realise something.......actually.....its not that i lost my basketball skills......but more like i dont have the passion/will to fight for the balls and score........and if im planning to carry on playing,i better change my attitude.......so ya...school work now......im actually having problems with 3D studio.....thanks to tt lee tong seng last term....now i cant catch up with it...despite lodging tt complain,im still at disadvantage,so screw it......luckily,im glad i could cope with authorware.....cause i listen in class..hees......and im much better in flash.......so i gt a project work to do and im supposed to have a team of 4.....pple would usually go finding gd pple right? well....im deciding to take 3 pple who dont study/have no interest in studying to team up with me......and im actually planning to go solo and yet give credits to them......then i gotta do a FLASH - ecard....gonna start drawing my storyboard in some days and well....i will upload it here and let u guys have a look ^^ and relationships....yeah......im finding a gf now...looking more to the matured type who would settle down with me......so im gonna end here....good night...^^ waking up at 9am to watch Miami Heats VS New Jersey Nets

2006-11-08T20:19:00.000+08:00

hmmm....got cheated by teacher...so ya.....managed to get my job done with some errors.....so what was i cheated of...mmm...okie...the teacher didnt say that we will be tested on rotation of ball,and outline of custom shape/masking.....so ya...i managed to get my ball to rotate thanks to some memory.....however,i was unable to fix the problem of outlining the mask layer,i tried using a "pen" tool but its not as nice......handed it up...and i was the 3rd to hand up....tat and me wanted to edit our works but we weren not given a chance...teacher say what..good enough liao....so i am like..WTH.....wait i cannot get good grades how....hais....went to mpcc for a look earlier....so ya....didnt even shoot a ball.....not sure if i would play tomorrow.....though its thursday but ya...i have this knee injury and my old injury is getting me busted.......and im so sick of authorware.....4 hours lesson on it today,4 more tomorrow...CRAP!.......but ya....watching channel U and laughing my ass off on the superstar debut thingy.....alright...ending here.....good luck all classmates and ya.....update again asap =D

2006-11-07T16:32:00.000+08:00

This post is dedicated to my classmates for our phase test
Now..dont say i never study...hehe

Draw a circle on layer 1 (ball)
Group the ball
Go to frame 30 and insert KEYFRAME
Add motion tween
Right click on the layer and add MOTION GUIDE
On guide layer,draw the line for the ball to bounce

Add 2 layers above ball and guide layer
Name them text and box,Box is above text
Add the text required
Add a box (rectangle tool)
*The rectangle has to cover up the text
On rectangle layer,Group it
Go to frame 30 and insert KEYFRAME on box layer
Click any frames between 1-30 and drag the rectangle to the left end
Create motion tween
On box layer,right click it and MASK

Next,Go to Window>>Design Panels>>Scene
Insert scene
Draw a small circle/custom shape
At frame 30,insert BLANK KEYFRAME
Then,draw a bigger circle/bigger custom shape
After that,click any frames between 1-30 and under PROPERTIES
Change the TWEEN to shape

Now,add 1 more layer called IMAGE/PIC
File>> Import>>Import To Library
Drag the image into the scene
Right click the image,convert to symbol ( GRAPHIC )
Go to frame 1,under PROPERTIES
Go to COLOR,select ALPHA and choose 0%
Next,go to frame 30 and insert KEYFRAME
Then click the image and repeat it
Go to COLOR,select ALPHA but change it to 100%
Create Motion Tween

2006-11-06T01:10:00.000+08:00

well well..sunday.......i slept till like 4pm,and the skies were dark but dam johanes had to call me and ask me out for basketball.....and tt tingsheng pangseh again.....so ya....at the basketball court.....everything seems to be fine with me...my speed,my jumpings and abit of my shooting......so i assume im back in action.....woots....theres a hell load of things i did at the court which amazed myself.....bt ya.....if you have gd times,you will be bound to have bad times so ya..the bad times.....johanes was the main problem......but doesnt matter,i just tolerated and held my temper......like who cares...my team is winning anyway...LOL.......then yah...went to meet up with uncle reno to return ball,dam johanes dragged me over one....sweat......bt he made it up by sending me back afew blocks....LOL......enough of basketball........mmm...school at 11am on monday...till 6pm....HOLY SHIT......bt yeah...going to bring my clothes to school tmr or im gonna miss bball......and i better ask weizhi how to do my FLASH stuffs tmr or im so dead...LOL....but fear NOT...im gonna score well this time...hehehe......im so so gonna plan my time wisely now...so after bball tmr...im gonna try out my FLASH and will only play games after im sure i could get it done.....so ya......all readers.....i had moved on despite the last post......so dont worry about it......i gt a performance to make at the bball court on monday and thats it.......xD gonna sleep now ,OR....im gonna be late for school AGAIN....so..gd night.....xD and i love the song "i stand alone" by godsmack......xD ROCK IT BABY!

2006-11-05T09:53:00.000+08:00

boy oh boy.......what a night it was......right...starting off....went to tathang's place at 1am.....played dota and watched them play xbox+ , had loads of fun...especially when yummy was driving the car...LOL...she just goes around crashing every 10 seconds....haha.....alright..so ya....met up with seng around 4am.....then met max,justin and guys at the kopitiam......then went back to tat hang's place....continued playing till like 9.20am...and now..im home blogging.....lol....so tired....tomorrow have to understand everything for the phase test or i wont have the chance to do well....sian.....so ya....i went past someone's blog,whom i shant reveal cause it doesnt matter as much who he/she is....so ya.....i had been made an example for some kinda "criteria" which kinda pissed me off.....but anyway.....it doesnt matter anyway....lolz.....let me see....tt person wrote...HATE pple who say wan quit bball bt never quit,wan quit maple bt never quit..wan study end up never study......so yeah...its obviously pointing to me and therefore to all readers,i wanna admit....its true....but i have my reasons......whether or not you guys care,im still typing it here....firstly...studies....im giving up my O/A levels because i am trying to use my grades in ITE to appeal for poly.....which means i need NOT take private O/A levels......2ndly....maple....i didnt quit maple because im using it to waste time.....just like everyone of you... i have my own personal problems....and i chose to avoid them...which i therefore chose to play games and tts why i didnt quit maple......3rdly....basketball....obviously,if u had seen my games recently,u know im not putting my heart to it......missing baskets and stuffs......true i wanted to quit....but i have to answer to every of my friends.....i have my friends at the basketball court than in school/online.....so i suppose this is clear enough.....and i know....how do i make myself really quit it.......im saying it here.."MAKE ME".....2 words are enough......lets say i could have a gf whom i really love..i would spend more time with her than on my games and basketball.......an example is sarah-ann.....its history but yeah...thats a gd example......but ya....back to topic,im no longer pissed with the person who wrote about me....cause after all the fun i had at tat hang's place.....i realised i had much better friends......xD and if pple asked...of all games..WHY MAPLE? well...answer is..im actually playing Gunz and maple now,so why maple? cause i enjoy hacking it....xD ending here.....sleeping time.....gd nite......and im sure some pathetic fellows would talk bad about me due to this post but ya.....who cares anyway...u can post a million posts,and i can still delete it off....

2006-11-03T05:36:00.000+08:00

well well....i dont intend to close my blog now...reason being.....i dont have to...and im lazy anyway....lol.....just finished my flash file,its for my phase test next week and yea....i somehow completed it in like 3 hours...but its gonna be fast the next time i do it cause im clear of what to do now...just needa ask my teacher to troubleshoot some stuffs....lol........so yeah....recently....had a haircut...which i somehow look like some nerds....lol.......then yeah..basketball.....im actually trying to pick everything back.......but im still not there yet....free throws percentage are back....but my shots in matches aint good enough.....and i realised something....actually....my speed has always been with me....im just lazy to make the effort to sprint....LOL......yeah...thats good news for me.... xD then i twisted my ankle but who cares la....pain pain loz......then back to school.....everythings still ok...squeezing all the things i learnt into my head.....praying that my brain has enough juice...hehex......bt yeah......my head is still hurting.....i somehow think its like not enough blood flowing to the head at times...yet i dont wanna see a doctor.....so...PAIN....PAIN LA...who cares...steady ma.... =.=' lol....then back to relationships.....no comment....alone,lonely,unwanted... xD i could give a list if i want to..but it doesnt matter....lol.....so.....its actually tough finding someone u really love.....and im just starting to give it up......whether i would be a gd bf or not..it no longer matters......its all over....xD so what will i be up to now? hmmm....studies,games,and leisure basketball FOR NOW.......so yeah....thats it 5.37am now....gd nite....and dam....sometimes i still miss some pple.....

2006-10-31T20:39:00.000+08:00

i suppose this is my last post le.....so yeah...im keeping the template in case i return to blogging,but i dont think i would be using the same url......days had been down for me and i had already admitted to fate......hasnt i been punished enough? im closing this blog down particularly because of a girl.....bt.....it doesnt matter anyway........so what did i do the past few days....NOTHING? had my hair cut earlier on....just finished my flash assignment and ya......if you wanna view it...its at http://img405.imageshack.us/my.php?image=guohaoassignmentoh7.swf , so ya....anyway...this blog is gonna be gone in less than 24 hours....so..since not many viewers are here, i dont think many pple will get to view it......im sick of it all........relationships..basketball...broken family...JUST FCUK IT ALL!

2006-10-25T22:29:00.000+08:00

today is my mum's birthday....got her a present but aint giving it to her till like the next time we meet.......didnt play basketball today as its like SIAN-zation......school tomorrow and then...got off for friday......should be playing basketball tomorrow so ya.....i would give 100% i suppose.......im trying to be a good kid in school now le...lol.....okay...relationships stuffs....like you see,im still single......lonely? yeah.....but what can i do......hais.....so ya.....i learnt to play mahjong the past few days.....taught by dorin,robin and guys.......so yea..sadly,didnt eat breakfast with them the next morning......cause im just too tired...hehe.....sorry guys......only seng would read this...lmao.....so ya.....my health.....horribly bad....my heads aching like some blardy fcuk.....my back is like cramped or muscles ache...? and my leg isnt getting any better with my current involvement to the game........tts it ba,....gonna try to post again asap ba......and oh god...i want a gf...but im not a despo =_=' lol

2006-10-20T23:35:00.000+08:00

went to seng kang cc to play today,jacky jio....rejected him at first bt called him back instead cause i had nothing to do the whole noon...so ya..played with jacky,wan and a outsider......1 hour bus ride...and we won quite a number of matches,lost the last one....cause we are too tired...lmao.....seriously.....its a job well done today.......im so happy about the game today...at least i didnt have to do everything like i did yesterday....tiring but had good games...xD just called momma....asked if i could change phone...so ya....should be changing my phone soon......xD

2006-10-20T04:20:00.000+08:00

basketball yesterday.......you know whats fcuked up? having to be responsible for the WHOLE team's offence and defence all by yourself is fcuked up! kaox......i spent 3 games...21 points each...running like a dog....sprint and sprint all over.....a very good way to get recognised as a good player,and a very good way to kamikaze yourself.......with me trying to do everything i could,my team was lacking behind......i went for offence,my team's defence couldnt take it,i went to defence,my team's offence couldnt make it.....wth...? and you got the last man defending doing nth and i had to chase all the way back ALONE just to try to save that 1 shot from being scored......isnt it pathetic...?? even had point guard control ball,havent pass....ball GONE liao....play till kam pua sian......so ya....just finished my flash project and btw...its 4 games..=p i had a cramp midway through the 4th game..lmao.....xD

2006-10-16T22:30:00.000+08:00

lets see...chalet was alright i guess,just tt i almost drowned....i tell you seriously,i am so glad to be HERE typing,i was struggling and i was exhausted yesterday when i was drowning,jumping and taking in the water......lucky robin and tat hang came to save me......after so long of struggling...fcuking shit.....then poor seng had to take my elbows for carrying me to deep waters...lol..sorry seng..my life is impt...xD so ya....slept till 3am till was dam cold and went outta room to sleep...lolz.....had breakfast with seng at 8,then gt these 2 ah beng with quite a few filipino girls.....those 20+ yrs old de,then wear bikinis...so after eating breakfast,seng and i was walking past them and one of them said...DONT DARE SEE....? fcuking stupid eh...lol....and i was thinking of shouting back..nothing to see...LOL...bt ya....$13.10 spent for taking taxi back home,then $6 for rushing to sch bt still late...missed attendance....alright la..end here.....headache le...and its my birthday in 2 hours ....so ya.....happy birthday to me...and im still single AGAIN this year's bday...x(

2006-10-10T08:43:00.000+08:00

these 2 days....alright...im keen on bringing her back to my life......not HER,but her......lol.....im lazy to change my profile stuffs but im gonna post here alrights...so ya.....waking up early or staying up to bring myself to siglap center area by 5.45am.....so far,aint late yet......to like....see her off to her bus stop......but usually,i ended up waiting below her house for like 40 min-1 hour before i get to see her.....so yesterday basketball.....im so so happy and pissed? first....i played games which kept me happy yet i gt pissed with my own teammates AGAIN after i swopped courts......played a real serious game....i took 2-3 elbows just through defence...fcuking shit......one right on my throat which made me like miss my sleep..coughing......and i still didnt return him the elbows......its like...i didnt feel anything at that time....i knew i was hit but,NO REACTION....i didnt even make a sound from the hit....then ya.....most probably basketball later......the match yesterday....i was glad uncle reno didnt blame me for losing,yet i was feeling very upset with myself....hais....cause i now believe no matter what,i could bring my team victory.....yet i failed......i will train....but i need time...and i want her back...so most probably,i will be waiting for her tomorrow morning again...and hopefully,i will make plans to send her to school xD gonna sleep now so ya... update again soon

2006-10-03T01:13:00.000+08:00

been quite a long time since my last post.....so heres it....saturday was meant to go fishing...bt in e end,rods got left in e taxi.....a real morale down for everyone......then went to tat hang's house to play.....kept bullying yummy.....and played cards...lol...so even lady luck was with me...kept saboing her....and she kept losing....and i was like laughing my ass off then.....but didnt catch breakfast with them as i went home to get a bath.....so on saturday night to sunday morning,it can be something good in disguise.....xD so lets talk about today.....i screwed up completely in basketball....and i feel bad and pathetic.....hais......too much of biking and i lost touch with basketball.......currently......making preparations for my b'day celebrations.....but due to finance probs....pple will have to fork out abit.... =( ,then right now....im feeling abit lost....dont know how to carry on cause i aint even got the mood to type....so ya...tts it...post again soon...

2006-09-24T06:04:00.000+08:00

well,i finally have a bicycle now....thanks to seng.......gt the price cut down to $200,manaegd to get a lock for $10 also....so ya......went to meet robin and his gf and daryl at parkway.....then went to find tar-han...dono to spell...lol.....then went on robin's vehicle and went to bedok jetty,lavender food court i think...and went on to marina and bedok resorvoir and the whole time...i was complaining i want my bike as i left it at robin's place....lol....then finally went home....abit tiring but today.......i realised the true meaning of friends......so far...i had been a bball fanatic and i had always complaint about winning games....but i think....after today,i wont blame anyone or get pissed as much in bball as friends are pple who are always by your side and keeps you going.......and true love would mean taking care of someone you love....someone you could sacrifice yourself for......^^ i may be wrong...bt....tts what i think of it right now,......did 140 push ups nia.....bt so sleepy......so gd nite...^^

2006-09-20T02:31:00.000+08:00

hmm....went to joo seng today,everyone were late besides daryl.....lol....then played.....had 3 games against the uncles and lost all the games......hmmm....good or bad.....the bad thing is i blamed my teammates which i shouldnt had done so.......good is that i had learnt more about basketball......but ya...i clashed with a so called metal fence earlier.......went on fast break......robin threw the ball too late....and i didnt get the ball and had to go straight and i had to try to grab the fence bt my hand went right through and dang....i hit it....and dam it hurts like fcuk....just like a fractured hand......bt luckily......im fine...though it still hurts now.....then i was playing good basketball yest and today but when i got home today......she came to my mind again and right now...im thinking...IM SCREWED AGAIN!.......funny you think...but ya...its really saddening right now......going mentally unstable.....im like having the urge to wait for her at her house void deck......to just see her without letting her know.....its like i dont care....i just want her....but....im bearing this pain within myself.......and news is that she may like someone else now......trying to make myself happy but....err....alright...im tired now...im gonna go for a run tomorrow.........

2006-09-19T02:27:00.000+08:00

lets see....i have been suffering enough alright...so...i thought of a solution and i went back to concentrate on basketball....so after screwing up for quite a long time....im back.....hohoho....my shooting is back.....but i am still having some problems with my recovery.......lets say....i dont give a 100% in my games yet....but....tmr at potong pasir/joo seng....i will give it all if i have to.......and had "huo guo" just now and celebreated doreen's bday....so hot......haha....nothing to add on la......still abit unhappy so end here......most probably will post about tomorrow when i get home...=D

2006-09-13T18:52:00.000+08:00

lets see....confirm flung my exams today.....lol......had breakfast with classmates...at paya lebar singpost....then went home.....slept till 4pm and went to play basketball......only intended to practice shooting but since xiaohei called......then ya...went and play...then played 1 match then lose...lmao.......didnt have the mood to play...cause its the first time i heard some kinda new "logic" which i felt was....wtf?....but ya....i gave the game up midway wishing the game could end fast....then went home and planning to study....im not gonna flung my test tmr....lolz...hopefully wont flung la....pass pass can liao..if can get A better......and about the girl......alright.....im leaving her alone for now......studies,basketball comes first and in this period...of course i need friends to be here for me........and ya.....i have a great bunch of them at the basketball court...lol...but u cant expect me to keep playing right...? so ya......it takes determination NOT to contact her for the time being....allowing her to cool down......so basically.....im gonna end here......time to rest...bath...and then study.....no appetite....sick liao... headache ,giddy =(

2006-09-13T04:01:00.000+08:00

cant sleep....i managed to sleep abitthough....bt still...she came to my mind and i woke up...cant sleep after that and here i am....with something i just wrote....hais...because of her reactions to me...im going to have to go through hell.....so ya....here it goes..

Its a night that i could never sleep..
Flipping on the bed,thinking about you..

AND i'll kick myself outta bed..
Thinking about you,not knowing what to do..
Staying up and missing you....
Is all that i could do,the only thing i'd do...

All i care about is you...
i dont care about...what others think or say...
I'll spend my time alone...
Just to wait for you,for you to come back to my side....
And i'll love you...like i do.....

I MISS YOU.....

from this part on....im stucked...cause i know i'd feel worse if i wrote more..... but i really wish to continue......one day,im gonna compile all these stuffs on another url i hope.......hais...bitterness...

2006-09-12T00:35:00.000+08:00

lets see..been some time since i last blogged and came back to my blog and seems there is like a war in my tagboard.....or is it an argument...aiyoh.....so these past week...i was mapling,basketballing and "stretching" my muscles......lets see.....i gt afew issues to say here.....first,about the girl......im getting pissed with her,so its not a good thing if you provoke me with issues regarding her.......2nd.....issues over someone at mpcc.......im alright with him till he started cursing me when i made plans to satisfy my desire....as in so wad if wad i did was wrong..i would pay for consequences and its not like i didnt think of the consequences....i love her too much i would pay even with my life.......as for this guy...i have no comments cause i had him blocked and deleted off msn....and i cant be bothered to waste my time......even if hes right...i know what i wan,and i go for wad i wan.....so thats it.....as for today....mentally unstable...YEAH.....woke up...thanks to the drilling noises from my neighbour.....renovation..wall tearing till 13th...fcuk them......for disturbing my sleep..and i blasted my speakers right at them earlier...lmao......so since im in such a bad mood...and i gt news over HER which involves some other guys.......you can think what im thinking....=D and i bet you could get it right......not gonna disclose more info now....bt since she still wanna play the avoiding game...im gonna go straight at her....and who cares....?? as for this.....im giving her a surprise soon......back to the tagboard......please end there kkies.....and sher....im not the best shooter in mpcc...i dont have the honour... =) ,there is someone always better.......and since im mentally unstable now....im gonna end here......so ya...end the tagboard war and good nigght...^^

2006-09-04T22:48:00.000+08:00

basketball today,slept till pretty late.....did enjoy myself last night at ECP,stanley's bbq......hes going to army soon...so sad...but ya......cycled and speed alot....i wondered...im so afraid of roller coaster yet when i speed,i dont even care as much....so ya.....strange la...and im still missing HER.......when i was at ECP,i sat and kept thinking of solutions...then came by...hais...give up.....then played basketball today.....im still screwed alright........i somehow cannot concentrate at all.....i didnt even score any shots from outside the paint...WTF......i really am a disgrace to myself...hais......im such a let down even though i scored some points.....its not enough la...hais....went to eat with daryl and robin and his gf....eat "huo guo"....first time i eat ok....hahax....poor daryl had to face the steam...thanks to the wind....LOL......then went buy bubble tea and while waiting for bus,we saw uncle...so had a talk....and then came home le.....kinda sad still......i need a direction to go...and i need a compass who can guide me......hais...

2006-09-03T00:53:00.000+08:00

managed to catch one piece today......so ya...i woke up with a blank mind for the first time of my life....i was like....what did i do last night? what happened? so ya....went mapling and mapling....i dont know what to do now without her...bt ya...went for match making in maple but still...no good ok......im sure replacing HER wont work...so yup......skip that,the main reason i posted this is cause i am LOST,apart from relationships....im very unhappy with myself.....i aint playing the same kind of basketball standard since we seperated.....i have never wanted to do my best in my games since.......but im giving uncle reno a bad time,i know he is frustrated with my playing now....though he is keeping quiet.....i know i have to do something yet....i just dont have the mood to do so,she is on my mind all these while and i cant shake her off my mind.....if i try to give a 100% again in my basketball games,i may risk another injury but i may just make uncle reno a happy man...bt...i dono wad to do now....i really am lost....so guys.....if you care,tell me....should i force myself to give my 100% again or should i just keep playing badly till somehow i become the same old me.......tag kkies... =( and take note,the passion of basketball is still in me.....i just cant concentrate for the time being...

2006-08-31T21:36:00.000+08:00

woke up late today..had 3-4 dreams man...wtf......dreamt of her also...but nvm that......so it was raining and raining.....went for haircut at ard 5.20 , then had my hair dyed......expenses took $70 from my poor wallet....lmao.....then went to basketball court......was so slippery and my shoe couldnt do me any good in those circumstances.....my shoe has a flat sole...LOL.....so ya...anyhow play loz....never really exercise.....lolz...bt nvm....then had dinner with robin,doreen,uncle,daryl and robin's brother.....then here i am...HOME.......not sure if i will play tomorrow.....hmmm....my leg is certainly hurting still...and i somehow is missing her still...although im trying not to.....so ya......if im gonna tear my muscles tonight,it means no basketball tomorrow till monday......so ya...shall see how my mood goes.....hais..!!!

2006-08-29T14:18:00.000+08:00

been a long time since i last posted so ya....recent updates......mpcc lost by 23 points to gscc....lol....then,we have my problems.....you see...these few nights.....im always having trouble with my sleep.....i used to like just drop on bed in e past but now...i always think and think till i dont have the mood to sleep......part of the reason is HER ba......never really contact since both parties are somehow busy......but ya...im getting a type of headache which isnt migraine.....its like my brain is lacking of blood/oxygen.......a real scary feeling....so ya.....i aint gt the mood/time to play my online games anyway........even if i do...i'd just be stoning there........as for school....i really am proud of what i did.....i wrote a 980+ words complain against a teacher and tt teacher read it out in front of the whole class....and i even argued with him and i somehow won....lmao......so,heard tt he wont be going to teach us again...woots...his name? LEE TONG SENG.....muahahhax......free advertising you know....so ya......there are some stuffs i couldnt write here in case anything happens to me.....but still......since shes not even gonna read my blog......no point leaving my msg here for her....maybe next time..... =)